My mom is dying, my family stonewalled me. 💔

I don’t even know how to put this pain into words anymore.

My mother is dying of cancer, and I’ve been trying so hard to help her. I spent countless nights researching treatments, doctors, and clinical trials because I couldn’t bear the thought of losing her without trying.

Now I feel completely shut out of her care by my own family.

I’m heartbroken. I feel betrayed, helpless, and overwhelmed with grief. I know I didn’t handle every moment perfectly, when I found out about the group chats and conference meeting that my cousins were invited to but I was left out, I started to feel racing thoughts and high emotions and cussed everyone out!

😔😔😔 my mom said she didn’t want me left out but my sister blocked me from everything, yesterday was the worst birthday I’ve had…. I cried, because I’m just waiting for my mom to die.. I researched so many ways. I found her a cancer institute near me, and I offered her to come live with me in which she said that would be great.

everything I did came from loving my mother and wanting to help her.

I’m not looking for judgment or arguments. I just need someone to listen, because I’m hurting more than I know how to explain. 💔