Rough day..

Today would have been my mom's 68th birthday.. she took her life 3 years ago 7 months after her terminal lung cancer diagnosis, she was less than 3cweeks from turning 65. I wanted to talk to my brother but im no contact with him due to his life choices with addiction. My husband is no support asca matter of fact hes playing psychological war fair atm watching reels on how hurt men are etc..cause in his words I'm awful..there's a whole book on how bad our relationship is an has been for years. ..but in essence hes trying to make me feel wrong for grieving..anyway this day an her death day are hard we had a complicated relationship an I go back an forth between love,an hurt, an flash backs..seems the years never change that