The same old grief❤️🩹
@Tinywhisper11
after listening to songs n imagining how I can revive them in my head only (those who passed away) I rly broke down the night but not having ppl around n in my life to know abt this
i was on my own as always with every heartache n during day i have to be like nothing is off
im like always looking ok
ppl would never know
i had to pause the song n reassign it to different situation or event or person bcs it became too much
next day i was in tears but still played n practiced with music n other stuff i was making while in the evening i came back to listen to Japanese songs
smth else so that i dont have to think if i see it everywhere around me sometimes grief come back again like this
what hurts me the most is the realization that they can’t see or hear what i have for them n that they didn’t have chance to know me as well as only i knew about them after the accident
they wont see my drawings or hear song that was composed uniquely for them but I hope someday world will hear it🙏🏻💙🥺❤️🩹 this is how I honor them…
but in my imagination all those images from crash or their faces, are there😭 rent free…. ☹️💔
sometimes I question point of this world when such hole can’t be fully healed.
@livbinny awww I'm sorry sweetie 🙁 I should have not mentioned those songs, the tv world for you and that's good 💗 grief never leaves us😥 the pain of grieving just seems to creep up on us, I'm sorry sweetie 🙁 I'm not sure what you believe, but I think the loved ones we've lost are all safe up in heaven, and we will meet them again one day, when the time is right🙂 I like to believe they can hear us when we talk to them, and on special occasions like birthdays and Xmas I write a poem to my son, attach it to a balloon and let it float up to heaven💗 I guess we all have our ways of trying to cope with grief💗hugs you tightly 💗