the day that my dad died.
on Saturday be two months that my dad died can't forget see my dad wheel to ambulance and hear the CPR machine run inside the ambulance nothing I do could do save my dad's dad life and that told us that he was gone remember I could breathe feels like have panic attack in my mind my dad was strong man ever know and went me and brother and mom went to hospital my sister in law told we need get quickly I know he was gone long time ago he died on back porch went see his body wheel ambulance I know he was gone that were signal that he was gone like the two ambulance got struck in front yard and then fire truck got struck too I know that was my dad signal that it was his time to going and see in that hospital no life left him he so pale and face look so different he was died in that hospital bed and me and my brother cry so hard and my brother hug me tight told me that pops love me and that hard part of see my dad then on November 13 he died and November 17 we had his funeral remember walk to him seen my brother and sister in law my nieces and nephew and mom and me and my man walk up to him start crying so hard and grab my dad hand so cry feel like ice and then me and brother start crying and he hug me tight told everything going be ok and remember my dad wear pink wrangler western shirt and black pants and his eyes were closes seen my dad died have ptsd from that tragic event of loss my dad and change me forever and see my dad grave every Sunday and every holiday I miss my dad every day and have 40 years with my dad and miss him so much and never forgotten his memories of him and the love I have for my dad will never going away
@countrygirl9988 😞I'm so sorry sweetie, it's so hard to loose someone we love😢 grieving is not easy especially when it's all still so fresh for you. Hugs you tightly ❤ but 40 years of being with him wow! I bet you have so many happy, beautiful memories ❤ please continue to reach out here for support, we are all here for you. You don't have to suffer silently or be alone ok?. Maybe one day when you feel a bit better you could share some of your precious memories, of family love ❤ he's never really gone, cause he lives on in your heart ❤
@Tinywhisper11 thanks sweet message been hard two months of my life there no one talk to my mom is cold went talk about dad and my man does want here at all and my brother got own life and his family and don't have no one talk to about my pain in my heart for my dad and cry so hard right now and miss my dad so much and going to grave so hard for me see my dad that he never come back again and I have regret about my dad like wish could see my dad more or told him that love him so much and but weird month before died told me just want said hi that love me I should know that was way said goodbye but my heart thought had more time with dad but strange things is he died on back porch his last word I can't breathe I wish is last word where I love you Kelly and Colby and my grandkids that all i want that did not happen way that would want
@countrygirl9988 no one could ever possibly know when the last time you will see them will be. So hey! No regrets ok, your dad knows you love him. I'm not sure what your beliefs are. But in my heart I know your dad is a Angel in heaven now ❤❤ and he's so proud of his daughter, and every time you visit his grave, he's with you wiping your tears, listening to you, full of love and pride ❤ it's all very hard I know sweetie. But your not alone, not ever. We are all here for you for the bad days and the good days. We understand your pain here, and your safe to get all your feelings of your chest, and talk about him as much as you want to ❤ I'll always reply as early as I can ok?. Gives you a giant tiny hug ❤❤squeezes you tightly ❤❤ it's all gonna be ok ❤
@Tinywhisper11 thanks so kind message for me and miss my dad so much my heart breaking right now and go to is grave feel closes to him go every Sunday because we always had Sunday lunch together all time and seen gone, we still do Sunday lunch for him thanksgiving his birthday my parents' anniversary and Christmas and my nephew birthday so hard celebrate these year and know that not going be here in more and these been hardest two months every my life he died on November 13 and funeral November 17 so two months coming next few days that going to hard for me and still have flash back and trigger of my dad death every day see him be wheel to ambulance hear that CPR machine run inside of the ambulance and see him inside hospital life less see my dad so pale and no life in him anymore but hardest see my dad in casket wear favorite clothes and remember touch cold hands remember get panic attack see my dad in that casket change me forever but see him in that grave buried in dirt from stop have flashbacks or trigger and my trigger are ambulance and hospital because I never stop think about that or remember get call from mom at 5:20 am that fall to ground in his bed room her call Ems for help his last words I can't breathe and I wish said me and brother name but did not and him died on back porch steps hurt me every day he should had peace went he died 'like wish in own bedroom not outside died in dark on steps and wish could had that piece of mind know that we there went he died wish that could ever happen but did not I love my dad more than thing in these world he was my first love in my life and see him one day and we will meet again pops
@countrygirl9988 hi sweetie ❤ sorry I haven't checked in with you sooner, I've not been very well. What you wrote in the message above, is beautiful. The bond, the love you had is so touching ❤ you've been through so much the past few months. And yeah! To see your dad pass on and then in the casket😞 must be incredibly traumatizing. Do you have a therapist to talk to about trauma? And yes sweetie, you will see him again, with his arms wide open to greet you with the biggest hug. Until that day though, you can see him in your heart and memories ❤ gives you a giant tiny hug ❤ how are you feeling today?
@Tinywhisper11 thanks kind message I hope feel better soon and I be going to therapist soon and other things do first like buy my dad tombstone that coming soon I have a lot flashback and trigger from my dad death and not feel good in last 2 months from sad and unhappy lately I wish could see my dad again but I know he knew love him so much and feel crazy that dad never back again only way I can see in grave weird know that I don't have dad anymore but years before can be happy again and know when one anniversary coming up in November 13 2024 that going be hard time for me and know when day coming he be gone for year that hurt a lot but then and see event of my dad death give me PTSD from these experience in my life
@countrygirl9988 I understand. Ptsd is a horrible thing to suffer with, but hopefully with time it will start to get a bit easier for you ❤ one year anniversary of his death is gonna be very hard, I know. But please never feel like your alone in all this, reach out here to me, or a listener. Never suffer silently ok? Your doing so well and being so brave during all of this, I wish I was there to give you a real hug ❤❤ but I'm here and always listening. Sends you a giant hug ❤❤ squeezes you tightly ❤
@Tinywhisper11 thanks be kind to me my dad was my world, and he was my first love and gave everything that dad could give his children and he was amazed person in my life and I was remember wonderful my dad was and still is and he is guard angel watching over me rest of my went I get old hope meet my dad again and give him big hug and my dad be in my heart forever
@countrygirl9988 that's right sweetie ❤ your dad is watching over you now from up above, and you will meet again one day ❤ take your time to grieve, there's no wrong or right way. Your doing incredibly well with all this already ❤ I'm very proud of you ❤ huggs you tightly ❤
@Tinywhisper11 thanks sweet comment I grieving best I can been hard times for me and I love my dad and miss dad so much and went old women be in heaven with dad 40 to 50 years down the line like me and him meet one day I give him biggest hug and kiss on cheek went see my dad again walk hand to hand in one day but down here take care of my mom and brother his family make sure my niece and nephew doing good and these kids grieving so bad for their grandpa feels so sad for them breaks my hearts see my niece and nephew feel these way
@countrygirl9988 your such a beautiful soul ❤ yes surround yourself by your family as much as possible, it'll be good for all of you ❤ are your niece and nephew young?
@Tinywhisper11 thanks kind message yes nephew is 6 my niece is 2 and my nephew more harder than niece because my nephew knew is grandpa a lot longer he so closes to him and niece still thinks are grandpa coming back and I am there for them if ever need aunt there I am there and be harder on me my brother and mom we knew so much longer than anybody else my mom knew my dad for 45 years me 40 years and my brother for 38 years knew have thing my dad and hope that niece and nephew coming anytime need someone talk I am there for them and when I last both grandpa was not closes to them at all so feel for them so much
@countrygirl9988
Im so so sorry to hear about this! I have been in this situation and it is truly heartbreaking.
Always here for a chat!
@FriendlyButterfly25 thanks been hard two months every my life tomorrow two months that he has been buried I miss dad every day and love him and i wish still here but know he is in best places right now had 40 years with dad and remember all good time had with him he my guard angel right now look out for me and I will always be dad little girl forever he amazed grandpa and great dad he be miss 4ever from are whole family love you pops you be my heart 4ever until meet again and went meet again give biggest hug in the world