Complexity Awareness
Discovering the name and the whole concept of this cognitive skill was for me the beginning of a beautiful liberating journey.
I have been dwelling on it, as long as I can remember, asking and reflecting on more possibilities than black and white to any given situation. The perspective of black and white has been one of the major sources of frustration in my life. The lack of nuance that I have so many times came upon, was hard to bear without knowing how to name what I was facing. Looking back over the past years, I realise I evaluated and defined it as all shades of grey between white and black. That was, at the time, my best explanation of my point of view in a situation. Some months ago I came upon the actual name: complexity awareness and it felt liberating because, most of all, I could read about it, refine it in myself, and find a source of external resonance for something I felt inside of me for so long.
The realisation of the following added to this sense of liberation:
- Romanticising greatness as something clean is pretty limiting. Great thinkers, artists and builders of worlds rarely have linear lives and we have a lot to learn from that. There are many trials and errors in achieving and living my purpose and my dream life. My purpose and my dream life are not something written in stone, but more a long blank page sketched in pencil, where I can and will make smaller adjustments here and there and even bigger, drastic and dramatic ones if needed.
- Trying to solve complexity as solution. I have tried this very hard, asking life to make sense on my own terms. What brought me relief was allowing life to be meaningful without being fully explainable. Seeing more, being aware of complexity does not make life easier, it makes it more real, and this is something I was longing for.
- I do not have to collapse into a clear narrative to be whole. Beauty, life itself, does not wait for the ideals conditions. It appears and asks to be lived anyways. I choose the act of making something beautiful even when the world is not.
Is growth about resolving contradictions, or learning to live with them?
@sunshineOcean8546
Growth is about learning what works best for you.
Learning from mistakes.
Taking accountability.
And letting go of what doesn't add to your life 💚🤗
@Amanda84
Yes, Amanda you are so right, learning what works bets for oneself is a very important skill. Being aware of the complexity of life is a gate to do so. Suddenly one realises there are so many options, opportunities and ways to enjoy life. Mistakes are our best teachers, it is how I learned so much about me, how I gave myself permission to live with the contradiction that I have discovered about myself: I can love deeply but I accept loss as a part of life, wanting peace and wanting intensity, devotion and doubt, and the list can go on.
