A Fox's Venting Burrow
I wanted to make this space for me to be able to vent or rant about stuff, because I usually feel better after getting stuff out rather than have it kept inside my head on repeat. Some might be rude stuff because I'm human and things can bother me, I don't want to be mean to anyone directly but I feel it's better to let it out in a safe space than keep it eating me up inside.
I don't mind replies
He's texting me almost every day and somehow I still feel like I'm annoying him :/ why am I like this
This is painful....I'm not allowed to text a friend first or twice in a row or else my "boyfriend" will break my phone...I just want to talk :( It's not fair...he won't let me break up with him so I can move on, but acknowledges that we're not going to stay together...why do I have to wait then?? Why do I have to waste my time with you if you know we're not going to be together, just let me leave then..."just one more year"...a whole year of pretending to be with someone and a whole year where I don't get to try to meet someone else....
Please text me back, my anxiety is going through the roof :( I'm feeling so bad
So I text first of course wow what an idiot just leave him alone!! Stop bothering him, he really doesn't care about you, he's got better things to do with his life . No one would actually like a loser like you who can't even make tough decisions for your own good
For real :( he is acting different than usual, I think he's really fed up with me :'( I'm going to just....leave him alone...I feel awful...
I'm so unhappy in my current situation...I wish I could be out of this relationship...but at the same time, I think I'm the one holding myself back. If I opened up to family about my situation, I would probably get a lot of support and be able to leave...but I'm too scared...I don't want them knowing my private life, I don't want that to be knowledge they have forever. I don't want them to look badly on him...I'm also scared how he would react if he found out I told anyone, considering he loses his mind if I even tell someone he doesn't like chocolate -_- such a simple thing...I can't imagine how bad it would be if I told people the things he calls me, how he acts when he's angry...
I want out but I'm also attached...I'm scared of letting go of the familiar even though it's not great...
I. absolutely. hate. when I text someone a question and they don't reply :'( makes me feel sooo awful and stupid...I literally deleted the text so I don't have the reminder of how much of a loser I am...ugh...I feel so bad
I second that
@FoxPrince
@Endrun isn't it just the worst...makes you feel like annoying trash
I wish there was a way to be out of this relationship and be able to work towards new relationships, but still keep him in my life...I just...don't want to be with him but I also don't want to lose him. But I don't think that's possible...
I hate dropped chats :( getting only one message in or sometimes a few, and then just no replies.... why do listeners do that? I could understand if some random emergency came up, but it happens so often I'm inclined to think that's not usually the case. Just makes me feel so awful and unimportant
@FoxPrince No one seems to know why listeners do it. There are discussions among listeners about what to do about it. Everyone agrees that it's unsatisfactory, and I think in the long run something will be done to improve the situation. But how long that will take, I have no idea.
For now, all you can do is report any listener who does that to you.
Charlie
@RarelyCharlie thanks Charlie...I know there are a lot of nice listeners here who don't do that, it just feels awful when it does happen. I don't think there's an easy solution to it, but I'm always trying my best to leave honest reviews/reports so I hope it helps them grow
I'm just feeling like total trash...feels like I'm just messing everything up and everything is pointless and I can't do anything right. I wish I could give up
Sucks how just one small thing can turn my mood right down :(
I feel absolutely horrible and pointless 😔 all from one stupid thing...and I can't even show how empty and sad I'm feeling because the only person around me will just get mad at me and give me a "reason to be sad" :(
Wow....he talked about kissing me...that's...so conflicting woww
I feel helpless and like giving up :( maybe I should just push him away and concede to this being my life...being with someone I don't really enjoy being with. I don't matter anyways