A Space For The Unsaid (Personal Diary)
Uh hello if anyone is reading this! 😀
I have no idea why I'm even creating this thread but i just feel it will be nice to have a place to share some thoughts or even these images on the internet that i always keep saving for myself because i relate too much but cannot share it with anyone because yes haha
I'm okay with replies here so feel free to drop by anytime ❤️
Just please be kind and respectful if your replying to my posts.
sits alone..
questioning so many things rn …
everything is so tuff … everything is out of my control tuff… or it seems so but idk… no matter how much I’ll try or what I do I doubt if anything will change … I try so hard to stay afloat .. to not give up… to still have a lil hope .. but it’s not easy.. when everything seems to be working against me .. and everyone seems to be … idk… disappointed in me… I cannot name even one person rn in life that I can imagine not being disappointed in me or being actually happy or proud to have me in their life…. maybe brain is telling me all this and making me feel on purpose but like… what if … what if it’s all actually true… what if this is real… that I’d be gone someday and no one would even notice …. maybe a tiny notice “xyz isn’t here anymore” and then that’s it… they move on in their life … isn’t that what humans do? they keep moving on in life… most tho… not all maybe … I cannot.. I don’t know how to…
I wish I could learn this from the more smarter or wiser or idk more mature?? humans and learn to move on too…
instead I feel stuck… letting go is hard and idk where to start the process .. how to do it… is there a switch that we can press that helps us let go? … idk there should be one…
somewhere within tho .., I’m conflicted … I don’t even want to be noticed … like it would be relieving to just calmly quietly disappear … make no noise .. bother no one… suffer in silence and then disappear in silence … disappear to someplace quieter from this world … someplace where no one knows me… I hope there’s grass there… I’d lay on the grass… watch the sun .. the clouds.. the sky over me… maybe I’d feel warmth of the sun again… maybe a little breeze will blow my hair… maybe I’ll roll on the grass with no care about anything or anyone else … maybe that would be peaceful? maybe brain will finally shut up then … or maybe brain finally tries smiling a lil then? … maybe
maybe the sky will notice me and embrace me whole however I am … and I wouldn’t feel so alone then .. maybe
@Optimisticempath
Hugsss Milky 🥛🧸💕 tightttt 🥺🤗💕🌈🧸
There are many people who are not disappointed in you and in fact they are proud of you. Rainbow bear 🌈 🧸 is vvv proud of you, Milky!🥛🧸💕
@Optimisticempath
Buddy im worry i wasn't checking up on you, and that i haven't been around much either.
I do miss our interactions in sr. I get those thoughts myself often, and it's lik3 a dark cloud is over our lives, hopping, wondering, being lost and wishing to be found while we actually emjoy the invisible bc it's comforting. "If they don't see me they won't know", sadly idk what would be comforting to actually b3 said as everything has a down side to it so i can only say i understand the feeling and you're not alone, i maybe aren't on cups, but yk you can always reach out and i will reply when i get back. Love you, ash 💜🥺
@Optimisticempath Hey you ❤️ It feels like it's been forever since I checked in on you. I'm so sorry. How are you OptiBear? How are things in you world? Sending you lots of love and hugs ❤️❤️
@mytwistedsoul no need for sorry Soulfriend 💕💕
missed you too and me is so glad to see you 💕💕
been unwell lately.. but trying to be ok
how’s you and what’s your world been like all this while? 🫂🫂
@Optimisticempath
Milky 🥛🧸💕 Rainbow bear 🌈🧸 is thinking of you 🥺💕🥛⍝ʕ´•ᴥ•`ʔ⍝💕
@VictoriaLove7 miss you rainbow bear 💕💕how’ve you been? 🤗🤗🤗🤗
@Optimisticempath
Me miss chu too, Milky 🥛🧸💕⍝ʕ>ᴥ<ʔ⍝💕 How's you? 🥛⍝ʕ•ᴥ•ʔ⍝💕
Rainbow bear 🌈🧸 been okay and trying to apply for jobs 🌈🧸 ⍝ʕᴖᴥᴖʔ⍝💕🤗🤗🤗💕🥛🧸💕
@VictoriaLove7 im ok💕
applying for jobs rainbow bear? that’s nice… did you hear anything back? hope you find a great opportunity 💕💕
@Optimisticempath
Rainbow bear 🌈 🧸 haven't heard any replies yet, but I'm currently feel content \(^-^)/
I hope milky 🥛🧸💕 is being kind and genetic chuself 🥺💕🥛🧸🤗💕
@VictoriaLove7
gentle* not genetic 🥕 me phone autocarroted it. 🤗💕
@VictoriaLove7 happy you feel content rainbow bear 💕 me hopes you can hear from them and get a good job 🤗🤗 your so hardworking and capable you’ll be amazing in anything you decid💕💕
@Optimisticempath
Thank you, Milky! 🥛🧸💕🤗💕🌈🧸 me hope you are doing well and enjoying things, and most importantly be gentle to yourself 🥛🧸💕🤗🌈🧸
@Optimisticempath
@BlueDarkAurora 
why are people so exhausting ….
why is everything so exhausting …
is there peace ever???
make my brain shush out please .. 😔
@Optimisticempath Hey OptiBear ❤️ People can be unbelievably exhausting. Tbh I think I exhaust myself lol. I'd like to believe there's peace somewhere, some of us just seem to have to work harder to find it 😕
(offers safe hugs) ❤️
@mytwistedsoul soullllllll 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 how you here rn? you know your god sent for me rn … I needed comfort and familiarity rn so much and 😭😭 hides in your hugs and starts crying
@Optimisticempath (hugs Opti extra tight and wipes away tears) Aww hey my dear friend ❤️ What has you so upset? Is there anything I can do to help?
Sometimes I have good timing! 😊 ❤️
@mytwistedsoul
hii soulfriend💕💕 is ok if me reply to you here?
pasting your text.. Optimisticempath (hugs OptiBear super tight❤️) Do you know what might be triggering those panicky times? It's ok if you don't, figuring out triggers can be complicated or it could be a bunch of things all at once.
@Optimisticempath It's always ok to reply wherever you feel comfortable ❤️
@Optimisticempath
*hugssie Milky 🥛🧸💕🤗🌈🧸💕 tightttt*
Love you Opti <3
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@Optimisticempath
Happy new year, Milky! 🥛🧸💕🤗💕🌈🧸
