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Sometimes I hate this
This thing that I'm born with
It causes so many unnecessary fights
It causes so many stupid problems

I can't go to a regular school
I can't have a regular job
The moment I say the word autism
I've already had enough

I don't know what the positive sides are
Of something that makes me so different
I only know the negative parts
Because that's the part that makes me conflicted

Why would I love something that has ruined my chance for a normal life?
How could I accept something that refuses my acceptance?
All they tell me is you need help
you need help, you need help, you need help

And I get help
The people who help have helped
But even though I can function better
No one can take away this internal anger

I feel inadequate, I feel dumb
I feel sad, I feel numb
I can't speak of my emotions
allthough I got feelings all the time
I wish there was a potion
that made it possible for me to speak about it in an other way than rhyme

I wish I could say what was really on my mind
I wish I could say how my autism makes me want to cry
I wish I could say I love myself in any shape or form
I wish I could say that I can conform to the norm

But I can't
so I play league
And then I get mad
When they say "autistic screech"

Because it's so hilarious
Living with this everyday
Because it's so hilarious
That this will never ******* change

I kept thinking I really must be broken
record, can't seem to switch off
wish my brain would shut up
as all I ever do is annoy
everyone in the room.

ALL I EVER DO IS ANNOY EVERYONE IN THE ROOMS

@MayaRoseBird5656

please 1-1 me...

HAPPY THANKSGIVING

SHARE YOUR FAVORITE FOOD WITH ME -post pics of your favorite thanksgiving dish and share it with me

Thanks,

Allie

@jennysunrise8 and @Gracey here is the first poem of today

Whose food is that? I think I know.
Its owner is quite happy though.
Full of joy like a vivid rainbow,
I watch her laugh. I say hello.

She gives her head a shake,
And screams until her head aches.
The only other sound's the break,
Of distant waves and birds awake.

The fact that she has autism is powerful, meaningful and deep,
But she has promises to keep,
After cake and lots of sleep.
Sweet dreams come to her head.

She rises from her gentle bed,
With thoughts of kittens in her head,
She eats her waffles with lots of whipped cream.
Ready for the day ahead.

ALL POEMS THAT ARE IN MY FEED ARE EITHER ORIGINAL POEMS OF MY OWN OR CREDITED TO THE SITES! ABSOLUTELY NO DUPLICATION ALLOWED!
- ALLIE

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MESSED UP

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WATCH WHAT YOU ARE TYPING AND BE MINDFUL THAT OTHERS MAY INTERPRET IT DIFFERENTLY!

DONT BE A ALLIE AND ACTUALLY PAY ATTENTION TO WHAT YOUR TYPING!

PLEASE REREAD OR DOUBLE CHECK ALL UR MESSAGES GUYS SO YOU DONT END UP LIKE ME !

@Wolf2903

This one @littlePapaya2167