Allies diary ( open to all )
The layers are so delicate.. so delicate like a babys skin
the layers are stuck on.. but only some
some with the most honest and accepting heart ever
can slowly open the layers and find the most caring and beautiful young girl
find the girl who is so sweet despite the moments
the moments that last but then quickly disappear
The moments that lead people to be inspiring
@soulsings
@HisoukiLenora080TheImaginatour
@sunshinegiraffe123
That's really a good expressing. .
11/8 Friday
So I almost forgot to do work for History..
I read in English which is good
but that intruder presentation eek that stressed me out
and my teacher is talking to my parents on Monday anxious for what will be said ..
11/9 Saturday morning
So today I received my service dog 🐕🦺
Her name is Stella
She is trained to help with my panic attacks , anxiety, autism and some of my flashbacking because she can do deep pressure therapy .
I'll post about her from time to time and will try to answer questions as you all ask them!
@sunshinegiraffe123
That sounds wonderful!
@sunshinegiraffe123 Hurray for Stella! Dogs are wonderful. My big hound dog is curled up on the couch right next to me. He's so warm and cute. I think it's inspiring that you started your own thread here. Good luck! 
@quietCloud22
I have this thread and then one for service dog questions or questions about pets in general :)
11/12 Tuesday Afternoon
So I was told I was going to Canada but got very upset when I saw it was -1 there. Then I found out I'm going to Disney!!
@Wolf2903
@sunshinegiraffe123 hey
@Wolf2903
hey
@sunshinegiraffe123 Hey there - How are you? I'm glad to see you started your own thread. I hope you don't mind that I popped in to see you.
@mytwistedsoul
Im not the best but it's fine...
and I don't mind , as I said anyone is welcome here.
@sunshinegiraffe123 Congratulations on getting your dog. I like her name. What kind is she?
Um - I just want to say - if talking helps - all you have to do is tag me. I don't have many good answers - lol and I'm not a listener but sometimes it helps to touch base with people.
I'm sorry you're having a hard time.
@mytwistedsoul
She is a chocolate lab.
She's laying on my feet rn because I tried to stand up.
and thanks , I'll keep tagging you in mind for mornings I feel down.
@sunshinegiraffe123 Oh chocolate labs are awesome!
You're welcome - I know it helps me sometimes to talk to people here.
Be gentle with yourself and your thoughts
@mytwistedsoul
gentle with my thoughts ... hmmm...
cant promise on that
@sunshinegiraffe123 That is a tough one isn't it? They usually have a mind of their own. Mine have a way of getting me into trouble. It's ok for no promises - tbh - I'm not a promise type person anyway. They're too easy to break.
@mytwistedsoul
exactly , most of my words end up in me being yelled at.
@sunshinegiraffe123 You can use those words here - I won't yell
This is your space - you can say what ever it is you'd like to.
@mytwistedsoul
Thanks
@sunshinegiraffe123
im glad you got her thats just what you needed you could put some of your favorite white noise sounds here and music that makes you feel better so its quick and easy to find all the time just come here
@sunshinegiraffe123
nice place alli here are some housewarming gifts :)
* pink balloon is tied to the chair ;)
@jennysunrise8
thanks
My dog is literally under my desk rn ..
@sunshinegiraffe123
awww does she follow you around everywhere or just when you tell her to?
@jennysunrise8
We use commands to get her to
follow me or to lay down on the floor or on me.
@sunshinegiraffe123
we are thinking about getting a new pup of some kind just not sure yet just have one cat right now .. glad you made a diary space just write your thoughts here about things or youtube videos or anything you want
@jennysunrise8
get a lab !!! There so sweet and cuddly!
Mine is pawing me bc apparently it thought I said let's go walk
@sunshinegiraffe123
lol maybe just thinks you need a walk dogs are very intuitive tuned in to how their person is feeling a walk would probabally help if your feeling stressed right now
@jennysunrise8
Lets 1-1
Wednesday 11/14 Morning
1st. Mercy leaves
2nd. Lucy left
3rd. Anya leaves
4th. Lor leaves
SERIOUSLY IS MY WHOLE SUPPORT SYSTEM LEAVING!! 😭
@wolf2903
@sunshinegiraffe123
princess I'm still here
@Wolf2903
but everyone else
plus I'm in still having my moment
@sunshinegiraffe123
princess take that moment and let it make you stronger do you understand me. 16 years basically my whole life I've been telling myself I can't have a moment and I regret that.
@sunshinegiraffe123 There sure have been a lot of changes around here. But there are still people here who support you.
@mytwistedsoul
yes ur right..
@sunshinegiraffe123 I understand though. It's hard whn you feel as though you're being abandoned along with all the other changes. It feels overwhelming and I know I'm frustrated myself because I really don't like change and there's nothing I can do about it.
@mytwistedsoul
Exactly
@sunshinegiraffe123
im still here sun *sits with you in the chair and thinking we need a couch* yea there are people leaving but jill did give an explanation why thank goodness in the thread for feedback so apparently it was financial (but people couldve been warned it was going to happen to have time to prepare mind and emotions for their leaving) but im glad there was an explanation and i also floated the idea in that thread about starting a community one year calendar for everyone so no more surprises so well see if anyone thinks thats a good idea
@jennysunrise8
thanks
and yes we need a couch
@jennysunrise8 can I sit with yall
@Wolf2903
of course :)
@sunshinegiraffe123
im still here I'll be gone for at least 3 weeks
@Wolf2903
😭 not even the mods understand me rn..
@Wolf2903
All the drama
all the words
it's a simple word
" Princess " SERIOUSLY THATS WHAT ALL THE DRAMA IS ABOUT
BUT YET I HAVE AUTISM AND I LIKE IT
ALL THE HATERS STOP HATING
ACTUALLY TALK TO ME
AND GET TO KNOW ME
IM ANNOYED AND MAD
Safe haven
safe place
oh how this feels
oh how ..
