Confession
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I sometimes resent my family for keeping me alive.
I really don't know what I'm doing. They say I have so much potential but I don't know where to start. I feel worthless. Time is ticking and I'm stuck. I want to pursue my dreams but I'm getting impatient because everyone expects me to just go to work, earn money and provide. But I've wasted so much time doing what's expected of me.
I'm still hoping in the end you want to give us a try.
I have a voicemail on my cell phone that I refuse to delete because it's from someone important to me, and I miss hearing his words. I keep telling myself that, even though the message on it is seemingly mundane, it might help for me to listen to it in a time of crisis. At the same time, I feel so pathetic for getting so emotionally attached to people and missing them so much.
I want to kill myself, but I don't have the guts to pop the pills or hang myself...
You can make it though this just keep your head up and look forward to the good things
please just remember you are on this earth for a reason. you may not see It now but a couple years down the road once everything gets better (because it will no matter how much you think it won't) you will look back and be so thankful you didn't do it. life's a beautiful thing but sometimes In order to get the rainbow you have to go through the thunderstorm. you will do great things on this earth, trust me, you will get through it
Thank you guys for those words of encouragement x
I had sex with my ex best friend a couple days ago that I haven't talked to in almost 2 years. She now tells me that she loves me and that she's always had feelings for me… we're both girls and I feel bad because I don't know if I love her back
I am good at destroying myself and i am running away from the person i love most
I hate my mom. That's my confession.
It was actually my ex-stepdad who's given me the most and the nicest compliments. My mom only finds flaws. Our only way of communicating seems to be diet talk and insulting each other. Sometimes I wonder what my life was like if my mum had died when I was a teen, instead of my (a$$holes) dad.
So a couple of confessions. One I always secretly liked girls (I'm a girl) but I've been taught that it is wrong so no one knows about it. Two I obsess about suicide. I can for instance look at a can of hair spray and think if I spray enough of this in my mouth will it kill me? I've had two suicide attempts. And lastly I sometimes obsess over homicide now I'm not a homicidal maniac or anything but the thoughts are there and I know people would freak out and lock me up if they knew
No matter what you were taught, liking girls is not wrong! It's about you, and what you feel good doing, so I just want to let you know that liking girls it's as fine as liking boys. About the thoughts, everyone feels confused and has thoughts like that sometimes, it's pretty normal, trust me. So just stay positive ok? There's nothing to be ashamed about! ❤️
I resent those who are in worse physical shape that don't have the disease that I have. I am angry, especially when I have visits with doctors, and they say I don't fit the profile for the health issues that I am faced with.
