Confession
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I sometimes resent my family for keeping me alive.
To be honest, yesterday I was thinking about taking my own life tonight. Now I feel so much better. I'm scared I might think about that again. I know the help of people is the best cure, still, I don't want to be a constant burden. That's how everything on this vicious cycle started.
I totally understand the whole feeling like a burden thing. That's how I ended up here, I felt like I had been pestering my best friend since all of this began (even though she tells me over and over that I'm not bothering her). It's nice to know that other people are here because they WANT to help. You never feel like you're making someone listen to you because that's literally what they're here for.
My confession is that I have overwelming urges to binge and purge. I haven't gotten any help ....and I'm not sure if I want to stop.
I've wanted to end my life for a while now. One of my best friends says he doesn't know what he would do if I weren't around anymore. But I'm always thinking..why would it be so bad for me not to be here. I want to know and see what impact I have on the people who care about me. Would it be that different without me? To cope with the suicidal thoughts I want to harm myself again. But I've been clean almost an entire year so something must be going right. I just miss that feeling.. That pain.. But afterwards I feel regret. I don't know..
I want to hurt self again
I was raped last Sunday even though the police say other wise. I want it to happen again because I don't believe it was real. I'm scared to but at the same time feel like I must
IK IT SCARED ME TO DEATH when i was raped every morning but I was only 6 and i dont remember if.it was real
I wish I was strong enough to just kill myself, ik a lot of people who would prefer me not to be around and honestly i dont want to be alive anymore.
this is honestly how i feel..
I know how you feel though, it hurts and makes you feel like shit. It brings you down on some days and completely drains you of energy. It kills you inside slowly, it deteriorates your soul. Though, as long as you stay strong and keep your chin held high, no one can ever bring you down. The game of life is a tough game to play, the results may end up terrible or it may end up good. It's probably the toughest and game we as humans will ever play, however, you shouldn't try to give up so soon. Even though bad things may occur, good things will come and replace it. For every bad thing that happens something good will balance it out. The world thrives on this balance.
@lavenderfarm i feel the same Because i am in the same situation like urs
A lot of the time, after I begin to come out of whatever HELL my anxiety and/ or depression has pulled/lured me into, I feel REALLY stupid and ashamed that it happened AGAIN in the first place. I know that my depression is a chemical imbalance and there's little outside influences can do to help (my body just CAN'T make enough seratonin). I just feel this way a lot of the time. I even feel stupid and kind of ashamed or guilty that I'm even sharing this truth.
I feel like a zombie, walking through life and not experiencing it.
Dying my hair befor work probably wasnt a good idea 
