Entry 10 -- GAY PANIC!

Without getting into my entire "coming out" history, I have been openly lesbian for about 3 years now. But in that time, I had no interest in starting a new relationship: I have been working on fully detaching myself from my wife of 12 years.

But something happened recently and I guess I am open to a new relationship now?? Like, I think I might be actively seeking it? I'm not sure lol I am still sorting through stuff. But today, I am gazing fondly at Sapphic ships and thinking "Aww I WANT THAT!" and getting all lime green Jell-O of them. I want a girlfriend again!!!

It's strange, because in the last 8 years I have been thinking I was aromantic and asexual, but it's becoming clearer as I heal from my many traumas that I am probably not. Or at the very least, it's not so clear. Discovering myself over this time has been incredible, and I guess I still have some more exploring to do 😜