Glossytears my diary

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@Glossytears

I am so sorry you are feeling this way. So many hugs! I hope you make many new friends soon. You are loved and safe here <3* sits with you*

Glossy, I'm so sorry to hear about your struggle in your daily life. Feeling lonely is hard. You are a wonderful young woman who has been through a lot in life. I am here for you and I hope you know that❤

It's been so long since I've seen you I am going through a lot myself so I can really relate to how you feel right now -offers all the hugs I can-

@Glossytears

Glossy, you are so incredibly brave for opening up to us like this. Sharing your story is one of the hardest steps of recovery, but it'll help you tremendously in the long run. The 7Cups community is more than happy to provide the support you need thank you so much for sharing with us!

Well im back again here writing , it has been a very hard day not support system no one to talk etc and the worst part and is the hardest one I have been age regressing which is nothing nice is soo difficult to cope with everything i have been going through in little time (betrayal, friends leaving me etc) . Im in my last semester of university and seems im starting to fail, im feeling so hopeless, Im having lots of struggle to understand my assignments and lectures Im so tired tbh of everything. Im sooo sick of everyhting of not having anyone to chat or talk im so tired about it all i just cant keep going anymore.

Im feeling kinda anxious today im overthinking like always, my birthdya is almost around the corner and im so anxious about it just knowing what will happen and of course getting the flashbacks that I always have and the reminder that I dont have friends because well at least in my country bdays are taken sooo seriously in which having a party or having friends and presents is sooo common and if you dont get that poor you and it always happens people: what youre gonna do ? me: Nothing people: Omg how come you need to get your friends etc gladly corona is here so is a big excuse but yeah ....

Im sick and tired of all this, what i did, whats wrong with me? I cant keep crying im exhausted of crying and feeling and be treated like if i dont exist, I cant anymore with this pain, with loneliness is just way too much, What i did to deserve all this, what do they want from me.

I cant keep going on each day is more tiring, painful I just want to have someone with me and that their promise is never broken. I cant keep going anymore

More about friendship and uni

For me is has been a wild year, lots of thing that I learned about, so many struggles, people leaving me and so on.

University what of the worst experiences in my whole life in every aspec (friends and professors)tthe only one that believed in me was my tennis coach ,he believed in my abilities, capacity and strenght, he encouraged me to be and get better, he always used me as an example between my peers (which was very embarrassing), he saw me played basketball once and he was omg i couldnt believe it was you and one of the sports you look into so much, you have a gift in sports a leftie in every way but incredibly you are right handed. My tennis coach owns my university life, even if he never arrived to practice he made my days bette,r he was always cheered me, encourage,teach me and gave me a reason to never give up in my dreams. Besides tennis a nightmare,

I moved from city in 12th grade which was hard in all ways, I arrived to new school try to make new friends then what I didnt want to happen: bullying. I think that was the first time I cried in front of a classroom bc it was terrible but well moving on...

University arrived well, omg new school new everything! okay great, so I started talking to the girl that no one talked to in math class and we became friends ... well as expected after 3 years november 2018 we cut our friendship complety bc it was so toxic actually I told her it was no healthy being friends anymore i wrote her a very kind but sincere one. Since a terrible fight were she yelled at me, insulted me, everything, it was horrible,backstabbed me etc, but the worst part people saw what she was doin,g everyone just starred at how she shouted at me. Great loose 2 friends (her and her sister bc she told her sister not to talk to me ever again which i always say hi and bye whenever i crossed with her in hallways) ... After this I found new friends in uni and I was omg yay new friends and same they bullied me idk what they did or what they say but they were just mean, people in uni saw that and asked me what happened but I said I didnt knew they just stopped talking so something she said about me to others which is not new to me bc she made that to other girl and moved to France for one year to stay out of the drama.After so much drama hahahaha back again to more drama.

I founded this friend that I thought was gonna be a friend for life but oh well, things went wrong, Idk the cause but made me loose not only her but a friend in common, non of them tells me the reasons of what was going or is going on. I really appreciated her friendship but well is okay im still hurt by it all.

I believe that bad luck is on my side and sorry if my engllish and conjugation tenses is horrible but im non english speaker spanish is my first language so hope y'all understand. And well this is the end to this episode of my life.

@Glossytears

I am so sorry to hear this. I am going through the same now and I know how much it hurts, but believe me, it does get better. You will feel happier one day. You are surrounded by people who love and support you <3