Glossytears my diary
Hi, Im Glossy, im not doing nothing well, I've been struggling so much to cope after a big event this year some months ago that have been affecting me terribly, I lost one of my best friend because yeah I wasn't great mentally and I loose her and by consecuence a mutual friend (btw I met them online) but well it has been a long road. Everyday im finding so hard to cope since that, nightmares, constant crying and suicidal thoughts due to it.
Im feeling terrible lonely not feeling and/or having much support not having much friends is all sooo hard I cant with all this pain. I regret opening, I regret of having mental health issues, I regret every single thing I did. Since this problem my self esteem dropped terrible and my self confidence too. It just have been terribly and so hard, I find it even hard to enter to social media because I know she wont be there with me, a terrible silence.
As im writing this I cant stop crying, hope one day everything will get better idk how long, since anothe big event that happen in 2018 still affects me i was healing and now with the event that happen months ago the progress i was having or the constant fight dissapeared. Im feeling hopeless.
UPDATE:
My friend the oone i was talking about today replied to my message I feel so happy since is a friend i really appreciate so much sooo im extra happy, hope this time I dont do dumb things and that we can chat as we used to so im glad about it, On the other hand I still have headache it has been going since saturday or sunday and doesnt goes away, but well hopefully tomorrow it'lll go away.
Well today I thought it was going to be different but seems it was not soo im feeling terrible :'( idk what else to do what i did wrong i dont want to suffer more, i want to old days back, the days that we talked non stop idk it just hurts me
@Glossytears Hugs for you ❤
@spectacularSunrise7824 Hugs tight
I feel terrrible even worse than ever.... seems my friend no longer care for me im in tears im brooken and hurt i regret whatever i had said i regrret having mental health stuff and for other i regret being oversensitvie I just cant anymore :'(
@Glossytears
I have always seen you as a lovely wonderful person trying to move on in life. From the time we have spoken you always being that chirpy bubblyness along with you and I adore you for that ❤️ I know with all the things happening around it must be real struggle for you, we all want to be accepted and loved for who we are. I hope you find similar people around who can see you and accept you for who you are like you do for others. I have always seen being so supportive and caring for other people, u are a great friend..it's their loss. With all the things semester can be tough, but you will sail through.. I believe in you. Lots of love and safe hugs 🤗❤️ * pulls you into a Taki Taki dance* ;) I am here if need be ❤️
@LiveLoveForgive Dia dia :'( i feel terrible
@Glossytears I am sorry to hear :'(
Yesterday i loose my friends from middle school im so broken idk what to do anymore im loosing track cant sleep if i sleep nightmare im exhausted of everyhing i dont see the light on anything whats bad whats wrong with all i cant cope anymore i just want one friend not asking for more :'(
@Glossytears
Hugging tight and comes and sits with you 🍪🥛
@spectacularSunrise7824. Hugs extra super tight and don't let go
Im exhausted, Im tired mentally I cant stop crying nothing helps anymoree I wish i could have someone to talk at least one. I loved sports and now I dont feel like it, I have a personal coach so that i can do excercise that doesnt helps me anymore i cant do it. Mom is do the excercise good but im tired im even physically tired. I cant do this anymore
Well uhm yesterday I deactivated all social medias I dont feel good and either with a friend that was supposed to be my friend she left me so bc of it i decided to deactivate bc it hurt so much that she didnt want to talk to me any more,I have been crying all weeks about it my mental health and all dropped so bad that it wasnt healthy anymore.
I wish tbh that we could talk like we used to and that it didnt became a pain to enter to social media and see how she is ignoring me all the time.
@Glossytears- brave of you to deactivate social media- hope it helps you to take care of yourself. We do care here on this site- wish there was more than these acknowledgements- but I an sitting with you during these hard times. Hugs.
@barncat aww thanks yeah it was super hard to deactivate social media the only things i have left is snapchat and well whatsapp but everything else is poof for now and well tik tok but i dont have an account i just have the app
@Glossytears
We are many members and listeners who do care about YOU. It was wise to deactivate your social media for a while when it hurts you like you portray it. Self care is really important. Sending a virtual tight hug and then 🍪🥛🍪🥛🍪🥛🍪🥛🍪🥛🍪🥛🍪
@spectacularSunrise7824 Awww thanks for always been there for me Sunrise thanksies <3 giving you lots of hugs
Tomorrow is my bday and not looking into it knowing no one will say happy birthday and that no one cares about me no having friends .... sighs and that the only person that i cared about she no longer cares when i deactivated social media she didnt even cared to have contact with me anymore....
