I AM SICK OF IT

Trigger Warning: Suicidal thoughts and a lot of sad feelings.

Every time I thinks it can't get any worse it does. It's so bad it makes me want to leave this freaking houseee. Why meee? Just because I refused to do some chores. No matter how much internally bleeding I am my own mother won't care for me. I know I am not unwanted yet still I am only wanted for work. My only purpose is to help them. I hate my FAMILY. I don't know what to dooo. I am sick of this all. Bring doom to this worlddd just take me somewheree,                                                        Is it my fault that my mother gave birth to me is it my fault. I shouldn't have born. I am not a sad depressed person. I hate my sister and I hate my mother. The two women I might love the most in this world but I hate them noww. I am crying like a maniac I hate feeling vulnerable but I hate more the feelng of being exposed by your tears. I am not weak. I am not weakk. Everything is ruineddd. LORD.