In The Gloaming TW *just in case*
With the tragic loss of the feed and after much debate and discussion. It's been decided to create a new thread. Soul space so to speak. A journal of sorts.
A place where I can dump some of the nonsense that goes on in my head.
While replies are welcome - they aren't necessary.
@mytwistedsoul Hi Twist. I have been having a feeling to write you the last couple days. It took me a little to remember where to find your page. How are you?
@PiecesOfWhoeverIWas Hello :) It is difficult to navigate here isn't it? Nothing is in any sort of order.
Thank you for checking in. I appreciate you! ❤️
@mytwistedsoul
@BlueDarkAurora Thank you! Sending some back to you! ❤️
Here ya go, Twisty...good vibes:
🤪
@slowdecline48 Thanks Slow!
@mytwistedsoul is that Dr Mario?
Also good to see you back haha ^-^
@BlueDarkAurora Thank you! :)
@BlueDarkAurora Apparently he's some character called Zhot? He's a mascot for some company or something?
@mytwistedsoul The character looks sort of like the ghosts from Pac-Man. Remember that game? 😃
@slowdecline48 I do! Talk about an intense game. So simple but harder than it looks
@mytwistedsoul Faith is a showman's responsibility.
@affectionateShade7072 Hello there Shade. I've seen you dropping these little tidbits in a few threads. I'm not sure what to make of this one, would you care to enlighten me?
What’s a gloaming? I’ve heard that before but idk.
@jesusredeemedme2425 The gloaming is the time of day when the sun starts to set and light begins to fade. Dusk or twilight. Everything seems to soften. :)
I like that time of day <3
@jesusredeemedme2425 I do too! :)
@mytwistedsoul "the golden hour", photographers call it.
@slowdecline48 Yes! :)
Ooh, I bet pictures taken during that time look AMAZING <3
@jesusredeemedme2425 If you'd like to see them
@mytwistedsoul Excellent pics!
@slowdecline48 Thanks! 😊
Sometimes to get things done you have to rent a crane and do it yourself 😜
😲 Holy dogs***!...is that you??
You are a braver man than I by far. I've already decided in advance that I will not go further than 15' off the ground in order to trim a tree...maybe 20' if I feel very confident about the situation, but that's not likely. Anything higher than my limit & I'm calling in a pro. I don't even know how to use a crane...best I can do is climb with ropes, then secure myself to the trunk somehow before I fire up the saw...& pray to every god ever conceived that nothing goes wrong.
@slowdecline48 That tree was 110" 😅 That's the highest I'd ever been tree wise and have to admit I was alittle nervous! 😳 😅 It should've been cut down years ago or never let grow. It was poplar and it's weak wood. I sort of know how to use a crane but not enough to feel comfortable doing it. So I paid a pro to run the crane because of tying the sections off to lower them down. I'd tie off to the tree and he'd lower the sections to the ground. He'd bring the boom up to my level and I'd tie off the next section before cutting it and then we do it again. It was nerve wracking because it was close to the house 😬
been forever me visited you here 😮 @mytwistedsoul 🥺 miss you always friend 💕💕 hugs you
how’s everything going in your world Soul? 👀👀
extra pair of eyes for the dramatic effect xD but really … it’s been a long long time we’ve talked talked 🥺 and I miss you too much 💕💕
@Optimisticempath Hey you ❤️ boy it's really nice to see you 😊 and the fact that it's here in the gloaming makes it extra nice
@mytwistedsoul I was dealing with a lot of unwanted thoughts Soulfriend…. questioning if I even matter.. if I’m bothering people … etc ya know that spiral lmao 🥲 you are in my thoughts too and I always think of you with gratitude in my heart … just struggle reaching out … talking etc on here … like on cups… sometimes… it’s still hard but im trying to flap hands a little here and there xD
like these random outburst filled forum posts I end up making when im spiraling the worst smh … but hey… we alive! insert a muscle emoji to show some bicep 😂
lmao obnoxious raspberry 😭
what’s been up? or like down … or anywhere in between for you friend??💕💕
huggie back tight till both of us squeak haha!
@Optimisticempath It's so hard when those thoughts sink their teeth in. 😞 You do matter OptiBear and you're never bothering anyone but I also know how hard it is to believe. Brain seems to always want us to think the worst of us. It repeats and feeds us lies
@mytwistedsoul teared up rn smh 😭😭😭😭😭😭 your sooo sweet to me Soul … your sweet to everyone tho really 🥺🥺 and I’m grateful I get to be your friend 💕💕💕💕💕💕💕 it’s really tufff with these thoughts but me trying… or me trying to try idk 🥲
thanks always for being so so caring 💕💕soul really cares and soul is really really cared for as well 💕💕 huggles you vv tight 💕💕 hope things are gentle in your world? 👀 here for u too friend💕💕
@Optimisticempath You deserve sweetness and kindness OptiBear ❤️ You are not those thoughts. There is evidence of your kind and compassionate wonderful self on so many pages here. Bring those bad thoughts into the light and we'll fight them together. We will kick bad thought butt. ❤️ *squeezes you extra tight* ❤️
@mytwistedsoul bad thought butt lmaoooo😭😂🤣🤣😭😭 Soul you are da best best 💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕
squeezyyy hugs back 🥺🥺 be vv gentle with yourself too 💕💕 me luvs u lots 🤗🤗🤗🤗
There's an 80 ft boom truck coming at 7 am tomorrow morning. Taking 4 more trees down. They're on the side of the mountain behind the house. Should be interesting.
80 ton not ft. (Smh)
@mytwistedsoul Wish I was nearby to cut up & haul away the logs!
@slowdecline48 Would love to have your help Slow! We could even mill it here if you wanted. I never mentioned it, but a few months ago I bought a sawmill. Real game changer!
@mytwistedsoul Those are cool! Nothing like the smell of rough cut wood.
A sawmill...you. lucky. b∆st^rd.
What I wouldn't give to have one...even an Alaskan-style one with a big chainsaw fitted in it would do...
@slowdecline48 I had looked into those too. The mill I got wasn't as expensive as I thought it would be. I believe it will pay for it's self because now I won't have to buy lumber which is crazy expensive right now
@mytwistedsoul
Be careful please! 😵💫
@PiecesOfWhoeverIWas Thank you! ❤️ I will do my best!
"Maybe if we eat one of them, the rest will behave."
@mytwistedsoul
"The beatings will continue until morale improves"
@mytwistedsoul How did it go cutting down those trees? I was glad to see you posting around afterwards. ☺️
@PiecesOfWhoeverIWas It went well! It was a very long and tiring day. I don't think the lane can handle any equipment bigger than the boom truck that was here. There's a nice pile of logs to mill and the house is safer. Thank you so much for asking and checking in! ❤️
@mytwistedsoul I bet it was quite a day! I hope it was kind of fun and good memories. 😄 What a relief not to have to worry about any of them hitting the house anymore. It’s always good to have more wood to cut. The truck filled up the whole road to your house? Wow!
@PiecesOfWhoeverIWas It filled the lane and then some. It switchbacks up the side of the mountain and the operator said he hopes he never has to come here again lol! I told him if he thinks it's bad now, he should see it in the winter. It didn't help that we've had a great deal of rain the past few weeks and the ground was so soft and spongy.
@mytwistedsoul What is that thing in the lower right corner?..it looks like a statue of Nessie.
@slowdecline48 It's a cast iron horse
@mytwistedsoul Wow! 😮 I think that would probably scare me in winter.
That’s pretty funny that he said he didn’t want to come back. 😂
@PiecesOfWhoeverIWas Going down can be a little intense. Almost slid off the side a few times in the past. It's best to clean it off as early as possible and the the sun melts it pretty good. (Southern exposure)
I have to admit I got a good chuckle when he said that!
The neverending adventure of being a hill person, eh? 😆
@slowdecline48 I'll never have to worry about high water!
while hope died
we stood still
too scared to move
too numb to feel
he begged
for more than empty eyes
while we watched
the moment di.ed
he needed us
we fell behind
paralyzed with nothing
but regret in mind
now all that's left
is all that was lost
a price we paid
at great cost
we can trace his voice
inside our chest
each word he left
won't let us rest
she said she'd change
but never did
and now we choke on the truth
we thought we hid
the pain is a debt
we pay it slow
hopelessly lost
which way to go?
if we rewind to the start
would we stay hidden in the dark
afraid to speak
afraid to talk
shame on our lips
guilt in our names
pointing fingers
at each other in blame
🐾
@mytwistedsoul Twist❤️
I may not have been there and know all the details of these moments in time. But I can feel the paralyzing freeze you describe. I can relate it to my own freezes in time. I understand the guilt that transfers to our view of ourselves.
I don’t want to try to tell you not to feel that way. You feel it for too many reasons no one else can ever comprehend.
I just want to surround you with love right not. I want you to not feel alone as you remember these bubbles in time. I can picture you standing frozen, unsure what to do. I wish I could have stood by your side then.
I know it haunts you. You are not bad for any of it! You are human. No one knows how to react in that situation. You are such a wonderful person.
Just, here for you. ❤️
@PiecesOfWhoeverIWas Thank you. ❤️ To read your words ... it means more than you know. I'm sitting here, re-reading what you wrote.
Somewhat at a loss for words. Sad that you can relate but also grateful that you understand.
@mytwistedsoul Wish I could pull all the junk out of your psyche, so you wouldn't have any doubt about what a decent guy you are...but, of course, I'm only human. So I can't do that for ya. Would if I could, man.
@slowdecline48 Thank you Slow. It means a lot that you wish you could.
If wishes were horses...
