I said goodbye to my lil buddy yesterday I need to vent
I’m sorry, I never stopped loving you.
I’m sorry little buddy. I did what I thought was best for you. Because I love you, I never meant to betray you or hurt you. You were suffering and I couldn’t bare to see the one I love in pain. Ik you feel unloved, abandoned and betrayed, I could see it in your eyes. But please know it wasn’t like that, I love you, I never stopped loving you, I never meant to abandon you or make you feel unloved. I hope when you get to rainbow bridge you can forgive me and understand I made this decision based on love and wanting what’s best for you. But if you can’t forgive me, which I wouldn’t blame you. Go find a new owner and forget me. Goodbye my lil buddy. Enjoy your new life on rainbow bridge. I hope to see you again. Love Beyond Forever,
-K-
With the world, I was Road Kill Joe. I’ve been hurt too much to trust many ppl enough to see “me”. But with you I never had to be RKJ, you didn’t know RKJ you knew Kris. I’m going to miss having you around.
As the great Warren Zevon said as he was facing his own death.
If I leave you it doesn't mean I love you any less
Keep me in your heart for a while
When you get up in the mornin' and you see that crazy sun
Keep me in your heart for a while
Bullet I love you beyond forever. I’ll keep you in my heart, for more than a while. I’ll keep you in my heart beyond forever.
Now that you’re on rainbow bridge, you can probably see all the great bands you listened to with me, in person. Go rock out with Lemmy and Dio and Dimebag and Vinny Paul and Hendrix and the greatest drummer of all time, Jon Bonham. You get to watch Moby Dick played in person. Lucky dog. I’ll see you again soon, my friend. Don’t worry about me. I’ll get over this and carry on. Because I love you and I know you loved me. I can’t wait for the day I get to hold you in my arms again.
PS Ms. Betty White, Ik you are up on rainbow bridge with all your animal friends. Please look out for Bullet til I can come get him again. 💔
Hey there @Dagro1933, I hope it is okay to comment. Feel free to skip, if not. ❤
It is truly heartbreaking to lose a companion, can imagine the pain and heart break you're experiencing. I'm really glad you are using this space to vent, you're allowed all your time to process your loss and grieve in anyway that works for you, letting out our feelings is a great first step.
Sending lots of love and strength your way. Hang in there tight, someday you shall get to cross that Rainbow bridge together with him and till then, he's too want you to do your best and carry on, carrying all the love and memories in your heart ofcourse. ❤
Thank you and Ik. But I don’t want him to go.
@Dagro1933 The hardest thing I've ever had to do was say good bye to my furry friend. It's an act of love - even though it doesn't feel that way. I know there were alot of times I would have sold my soul to not have to do it - I wasn't ready to say good bye to her
It hurts - it will for a while I'm afraid. Its been alittle over a year here and I'm choked up now. He was your friend - family. I know my girl was
Is there something you can do to honor his memory? We planted a tree - a dogwood and her collar - leash and favorite toy have a special place on the mantle. Maybe you could make a collage of your favorite pictures of him? Maybe not right now but maybe someday when the hurt isn't as fresh
I'm so sorry for your loss ❤
@mytwistedsoul when I get his ashes back, I’m getting a tattoo on my ring finger and having some of his ashes mixed in the ink. I have a sketch and a corn cob pipe with his portrait painted on it l, that someone gave me sitting on a shelf next to my bed. Hanging over my bed. I have a painting that me and him did a week before he passed away. I could feel it that my time with him was running out. So I painted a sky blue background and I dipped his paw in gold paint and tried to get a paw print. But he wouldn’t cooperate and I just have a gold smear in the middle of the canvas.
@Dagro1933 That sounds really nice. I thought about getting a paw print tattooed on my chest over my heart. I never gave a thought about having some ashes mixed in though. I want to wait though because I'm going to have to go through it again. Her sister is getting on in years and is deaf and allmost completely blind now and unfortunately I know - eventually ya know? Life sucks that way
Did they make a clay impression of his foot? Maybe you could transfer it onto another canvas? All though that gold smear would mean the world even if it didn't go the way you hoped but maybe if you could do another one?
Take care of yourself
@mytwistedsoul the gold smear is perfect. And I can’t get a paw print over my heart. I got a crown there with my ex. So I’m getting it on my left ring finger. Because there’s a vein that connects directly to the heart. Which is why it’s commonly used to wear a wedding band.
@Dagro1933 I didn't know that! That's so cool and a really good place for your tattoo
@Dagro1933
I'm sorry you lost your little dude. A lot of what you said resonated with my own lost brother/son/almighty Dog. He always hated other dogs, but hopefully he is mellowed out about it now and is getting some long lost connectivity with the likes of Bullet.
@Dagro1933-All of us who have lost dear pets and animals send our love. It has been the most heartbreaking decision of our lives to send them across the rainbow bridge. The pain and loss is so unbelievable at times it catches our breath and doesnt let go. Allow yourself to grieve, it is understandable. Someday I intend to get a tattoo to commemorate my beloved horses. Thank heavens my little dog, pandemic senior "puppy" is alive and well. Hugs to you.❤️ 🐴🐴🐴🐴🐴❤️