Maybe it's just best to forget it

I keep going back and forth in my mind whether or not to try to reconnect with people. Like, having a friend group just sounds so nice. Creating meaningful memories and all of that. And being surrounded by positive influences. But then I remember that the cons outweigh the pros. People are busy. People are flaky. People have their own lives now. I'm too boring and serious. Also, I've toughened up a lot over time, and I think I would just end up being an asshole to people. More than I ever have been. And deeper than that, if someone says something that makes me feel bad then it leaves a mark on me that I can't erase. Also I can't forget the fact that my great ideas always fail in the most embarrassing ways.... Even though I'm still left with curiosity, nostalgia, and a desire for something more to my life...I just don't see this as a good idea unfortunately. Bleh.