Me!

@Mishi1053 Welcome to the community! We are happy to have you here with us, and thanks for dedicating your time here to support others. If you have any concerns or questions, let us know. Best wishes! :)

Today is a good start. I woke up had tea then danced and stretched. I never thought I will engage in yoga but, now I am liking it, it is so relaxing. Dancing cheers me up so, it is a good start. I still haven't come up with a good schedule but, I will.

I would like to remind myself:
I love me. I am pretty. I am kind. I am smart. I am strong. I am safe with myself. I am here for myself. I promise myself that, I will never judge or criticize myself. I won't care about what people think of me, at the end of the day what matters is that what I think about myself.
I will forgive and forget. I will move on and start a new journey.

I love me......

11.27.2020
Mitanshi.

I am feeling good, today I realized how much importance listening and helping people holds in my life, it gives me a purpose, it makes me feel good about myself, and helps me improve myself more and more.
I danced twice, did yoga twice, and exercised once. I prepared dinner too. My day was pretty productive. I had fun.
I did felt a little low and sad once. But, I am fine now.

11.27.2020
Mitanshi

A bad day

I have been sad all day. I feel stuck. I feel like I am tired. This feeling is so overwhelming, I am trying hard to improve myself but, I just give up in the end. I wish I had a best friend to talk to. I don't think I have anything else to say......

I finally broke up with him today. It hurts but, maybe it's for the best. Maybe it's a new opportunity to work on me, this time I will not jump into a new relationship. I will face pain and my fears. I am scared that I will be left alone. But, No worries Mitanshi, you will heal soon I promise.

Just a reminder sweetie:
"I love you. You are pretty. You are smart. You are intelligent. You are strong and you are safe with yourself. Don't worry you won't be left alone just don't rush Ok? Face it don't fear it. I am here for you. It's time to love yourself, care for yourself, learn to enjoy your own company, and focus on your dreams, it's time to put the effort in yourself. It will all be fine."

My goal: 1. Learning to love me. 2. Learning to enjoy my own company. 3. Exploring myself.

I became friends with him. I thought it would be fine to stay friends. Maybe it might make our relationship healthier. I am glad I became more active and have been exercising, I did lose some fat but, I still don't feel pretty maybe because I have been making myself feel low a lot. But I know I will get there, after all, I can't learn self-love in one day, it takes lots of time and effort. I know I can do this.

Today was not as good. I felt overwhelmed and down. I spend most of my time on the site trying to help people, that is my only coping mechanism. But, today it wasn't working. So, I sat down and thought about what felt wrong. Maybe I was sad because I no longer have friends and I keep feeling no one wants to be my friend. I had to move to other city because of that I got disconnected from everyone.

This year has taught me lots of things because staying home and getting disconnected from everyone the feelings that were buried inside me came out and I realized I never actually overcame them, I just have been running away.

I came up with an idea today, I have set 3 reminders in my phone with long texts to encourage me, keep me motivated, and help me feel less lonely. It felt so, good even after knowing those just few reminders from myself to me. It felt good. Suddenly my face went hot and tears began to stream down my face.

One side I felt so happy, and I was glad I could come up with such a great idea but, on ther hand I felt so sad and helples.

I wish I find some friends soon....

I am so proud of myself. I hosted "Sharing Circle" for the first time. I felt really anxious but, it was worth trying. I am thankful to everyone who was present there, all of them supported me It was such a great experience. Because of 7 cups, I becoming better and better. I am improving and finally overcoming my anxiety.

I am proud of myself. I love myself for being so strong. I am proud of myself for finally making progress.

5th December, 2020

@Mishi1053 welcome. It's a pleaure to meet you here. You could ask anything here. Btw, I want to be your friends too.

So, from tomorrow I will be starting my 3 weeks of physical care challenge. I thought it would be a nice idea to challenge myself to improve my physical health also, I can test my consistency. So, wish me luck.

The challenge goes as follow:
1. 3 meals.
2. Drinking 8-12 glasses of water.
3. 1 cup of milk every day.
4. Taking my immunity medicine and blood purifying syrup every day.
I will share weekly updates
A note to myself
"No matter how I look I am still pretty. If I fail to complete this challenge it's ok. I will learn from this experience and improve myself more. And THIS IS NOT A COMPETITION. I am doing this to improve myself. Hope I do a great job. "

12th December, 2020