My PTSD journal (any replies welcome)
(TRIGGERS***) I literally hate life right now. ( I have PTSD and depression) But I have to go around faking I'm fine because anytime that I don't and I show that I'm not fine my trauma gets invaildated. I've gone through so much. A car crash, lost two people they died and I loved them much, I've been stalked not by one person but two, I've been threatened, I've suffer many injuries and illnesses, and to top it off was abused. Yet according to other people I'm being overdramatic and oversharing and overreacting. When I'm literally dying inside. I'm drowning. I'm trapped. I need help. But nobody's trying to. They just watch me suffer and drown and die. They care but do nothing because they are scared to. They don't want to make anything worse and I get that, but, it doesn't get worse than this.
@harmony56
Really sorry you're having a horrible time❤️
Hi! @harmony56
It sounds like you've been through more than a lot. I couldn't even begin to imagine what you're going through, but you are strong for reaching out here and putting your emotions into words. People can be the worst sometimes, right? I find, a lot of the time, when people dismiss you it's either because they genuinely do not care about what you're going through OR (more often) they don't know what to say or how to help you despite wanting you to feel better, so they make your problems seem lesser to make them seem more manageable in their own minds. If they can tell you, "you're just overreacting, get over it," then they just made it better in their own minds, and they can pretend they had an impact in reality too...based on my experiences.
But that's not really helpful. In fact, as it seems you feel, it makes it worse, because now you feel invalidated. Well, you're feelings are valid and real. I'm sorry you don't have a good support system around you. Hopefully you can find some of that here on 7 Cups because that's what we're here for :)
@harmony56
I'm so sorry for your loss and all that you've gone through harmony, none of it has been easy and I do hear you 😔❤️ It's tough being said we're over reacting while we're just really struggling a lot and I think it's important to have a safe place to share. I'm really glad you're here. Sending lota of positive thoughts your way