Ni's Little Solace
Not sure why I am creating this thread exactly, and I'm doing this so late at night as well :') I just felt... like I should do this haha. I do have a one line a day thread although I... don't think I have felt so free over there to write as much as I wished. So I thought maybe... I should just make another thread, a diary perhaps.. where I can really be myself.. and maybe post pictures and quotes, literary quotes maybe... and poems.. specifically haiku hehe. Also vents.. thoughts and maybe letters :')
Replies are welcome as well <3 although please remember to stay respectful and kind.
*sending lots of love and hugs because why not*
tw- sh.
relapsed but
isnt that exactly what i do when i have no idea what to do.
tw- sh.
idk kept telling myself it didn’t matter anyways. id been clean for like 2 days…………
yeah.
@LoveMyMoonflowers I didn't know you had this kinda thing going on...am sorry to read it, little one. Perhaps I've been remiss in our friendship...apologies for that.
Self-harm will not solve any of your problems, whatever those problems may be. This is something you must remember.
@slowdecline48
awwe no slow i don’t think there’s any need to apologise. 💜 it’s not your fault. it’s ok. 💜
well anyways i should shut up now .
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou
*hug… vv tight. never lets go.*
@LoveMyMoonflowers *keeps hugging tighttt*
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou
thank you… 💜
can’t breathe okay… 😞
:/ i feel so dead. in every way possible
except…… physically.
:/
@LoveMyMoonflowers
I know it can be awkward to share on forums - is there someone you can talk to? Sometimes it helps us reconnect with ourselves 💙
@mytwistedsoul
that’s so cute 🤭 the GIF. hehe.
*is confuzzled by the question because my brain ain’t braining* awkward to say what…..?
@LoveMyMoonflowers Awkward to share things - anything really. Idk 😅 Tbh I don't think my brain is braining very well this morning 😬 just ignore me lol because I'm not sure what I was talking about
@mytwistedsoul
yeah. tbh i prefer forums over rooms/PMs though. PM land makes me anxious most of the time but it depends on who I’m PMing. the rooms are………… yeah. 🤪 :')
and of course whenever i wanna talk about things brainie decides it’s a good time not to have words. (yas my brain’s name is brainie, how creative.)
i guess it’s okay to have days when our brains aren’t braining lol. 💜
(i feel crazier today.)
@LoveMyMoonflowers If I remember correctly you were having some issues with PM's yesterday so I can understand not being too keen on using them unless it's someone you know you can trust
@LoveMyMoonflowers Quite relatable...I've had days like that. Whenever I'm having a depressive episode/Meniére's flare-up/whatever, I remember an old maxim:
"This, too, will pass."
@slowdecline48
that is true… it can be hard to remember though especially when you’re right in the middle of it… :')
@mytwistedsoul
Yeah. that was triggering :') it’s fine though…
Oh noes friend I’m sorry 😞 did that happen to Soul buddy in rooms? :( 💜 Idk on teenie side SR rarely feels safe. when it does feel kinda safe or okay ish it’s pretty full. The commods might say that it’s a group space and it’s okay for several people to share at once - but idk, it doesn’t feel like it. it’s hard to find words but even when you do have the words… sharing… talking about it is another wrestle.
Tbh I think I do the invalidating myself :')
Hehe, yeah. I agree 💜
@LoveMyMoonflowers I'm sorry it was triggering 😞 That's never a good thing
@mytwistedsoul
It’s nice to be heard. Because idk when you’re silent, when you don’t say anything it hurts. i guess being and feeling heard doesn’t really change situations but it does make things feel a bit better. Idk. (#BrainStillNotBraining)
Yeah I get that Soul 😞 receiving support is muchhh harder than giving it to others. Because our brains like to convince us that they deserve it more than we do. it’s easier to be kind to others than it is to be kind to ourselves. being kind to self ….. that’s a…. challenge lol. :’)
It’s really hard to stop …. :( personally if i wanted to stop i wouldn’t know where to start 😅 or what to do.. idk.
*Hugs for soul buddy if okay* 💜
@LoveMyMoonflowers It does hurt. And then we convince ourselves that we deserve to hurt. And then we convince ourselves that nobody cares anyway so why are we even bothering. It does feel better to get the words out. Because then we're not just letting them eat away at us. We pulled them into the light and sometimes other people can help show us a different way to look at them
….. i never let anyone do this.
i’ve never been so manipulated on Cups ever. this is crazy. :')
@LoveMyMoonflowers can frnd tell whats going on?/nfta
u hv our support no matter what it is 🤗
@unassumingEyes
just stuff in PMs. :')
@LoveMyMoonflowers has frnd tried reporting?
@unassumingEyes
me…? no i didn’t try.
@LoveMyMoonflowers yeah. Do u think itd be worth a try?
@unassumingEyes
too scared.
i need this to stop.
@LoveMyMoonflowers What's going on??
Maybe you should tell GlenM about it?...
@slowdecline48
no it’s okay. it’s just someone saying… stuff… it’s been happening to me and to a friend, too, in PMs.
there’s been a lot of conflict and craziness on the teen side lately. i’m not sure if you’ve seen the posts in forums but some teens talked about it. this is just another one… :/
they said it’s getting dealt with, apparently. but idk. i’m just gonna wait.
@LoveMyMoonflowers I should d**n well hope it's "getting dealt with" since only Listeners can do PMs on here. If a Listener is saying anything out of line, then (s)he is clearly not obeying 7C rules, & is also abusing his/her authority.
@slowdecline48
yep.
idk for sure if it’s being dealt with. if it isn’t really, i’m too scared to report… :/
@LoveMyMoonflowers okay. Its normal to feel scared taking that step. We're here no matter what you do ❤️ i hope things work out
@unassumingEyes
i messaged a commod. it’s okay now… their accounts are gone. so no more PMs from them. 💜
@LoveMyMoonflowers ok. I’m proud of you for that ❤️ it must have been a hard step to take…here if you need anything. Or if you just want me to be here ❤️