Open to any replies:A diary of Polaris2088
No shame in starting again in a different place, different from the virtual space previously. No shame in not knowing how it would be used or how often.
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Used to watch 'Todd in the shadows' more..
This is what I get for caring too much, caring too much about what others think..
but I am more afraid that if I 'get in the practise too much' of not caring, inevitably it means I'm no better than the rest of you
[this is what 'feeling/thinking your better than anyone else is like, this is what 'feeling/thinking your better than anyone else is like in a intrapersonal psychopolitical quasi-meritocratic sense]..
..b/c what barely anyone can eloquently state is much like how *'1/2'* your being only emerged after the tremendous cellular effort that is the (under most biological circumstances) one spermatozoa contacting the ovum..the 'other portion' that will be most of your existence, religious or not, godless or not, holy or not is maintaing a all too f--g fragile ~3 pound meat computer and it's experential internal quality healthy whilst being growing into the demented but meaningful 'games' of your fellow hairless apes and their s--y grasp of 'true nihlism' which for most of the species run has meant self-deception into some gracefully destructive objectives and usually giving/remaining w/the same f--g halfwitted responses of 'who cares' learned upon, learned upon and usually left unaltered upon the 87,600 to 157680 hour sentience range, only what is 'adequate' for breeding and repeat this cycle apparently better...
s--tposting
@Polaris2088
I laughed really hard at "3-pound meat computer".
'_' If I do this too often I dread, I become fearful of somehow being fired.
=_= F--k !, do I hate risk!.
Does this all make more sense when you look at through the sense of haitng risk >:I !.
When you think about feasible mental realities like the FOMO feeling that some mathematician/actuary out there can weave through so much of this cliche bellyaching!.
Settle down--exercise---(?)--work will be fine.
'Gabaleth'= increased 'settled down' Polaris2088
I can't wait to see the full Gen.8 Pokemon line-up; I'm problematic.
To thinking my dad got over his hang-over and is on his way or at work w/a distant cousin of my mom/an 'uncle' just fine.
Derrida was not always right. Derrida is not always right.