Open to any replies: Diary of Polaris2088
Delighted to know about this venue within the forums. Can definitely understand if a moderator would message me after this to clarify things with me.
Something, something..misuses of volition on this site.
It apathetic self-deception prevails b/c of the interest in 'not worrying' or 'relaxing', it's a p--s poor approach which only makes one addicted to the short term. Somewhere up there or 'on par' w/how 'the golden rule' can stimulate a borderline biological deontological call in ppl's is something, something, something which can stimulate through the 'same m.o.' (biological) in ppl for the 'culmination' of long term relief..
I'm not referring to the mainly teleologically bound or espoused notions of afterlives...something,something 'Cracked' podcast which mentioned about a 'flaw' w/the golden rule.
Underconfidence not self-confidence..now there's an idea.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2Uj1A9AguFs&list=WL&index=4&t=0s
The pt. o'me which wonders if the most notorious of 'white ppl problems' is merely a case o'persons not understanding their parents*.
*No race is exempt from this. No ethnicity is exempt from this. This causality.
Why are resume writing books not among top-sellers more often?. Why aren't thick academic tomes about parenting not more widely read by 20-somethings?.
[Parenting tomes]..~you can never be ready only ready enough—Harrison Ford ‘Enders game trailer
I f---g hate how the f—g myth of a ‘nuclear family structure of 5 plus maybe pets is barely accomodated for ‘irl . Not only the d—n resources and effort it takes to pull that off but the fact that in the space of said house there is barely enough space for the mundane and non-eventful activities of life.
Considering the range of frustrations about scarcity and experiences I bring up does it make sense that I get upset that ppl could say 'it's your fault' for not having paid attention to apparently important things when you were 'under double digit' age ranges considering how not uncommon that crass, indifference and exploitation to inexperience and indeterminacy can be given to children.
It can apply to 2020's as much it did to the 2000's, the 1990's,the 1980's, the 1480's etc..collective irresponsibility 'dies hard' and unnoticed.
Will admit that current impulse to type comes from uncomfortable,cliche experiences recently and the hassle of trying to 'pull it off better tomorrow'.
I suppose that contrary(?) to Camus and seeking answers in an answerless world (absurdism), I'm verbiose b/c of my craving to attain as many responses as I can and 'legitimately record it' (writing---Derrida's influence). I realize how this doesn't always work out (call centre experience) at least comofrtably when your in the position of needing to dole out said info and cram it all compentently, spread it out competently in a world of entitled nitwits. Entitled nitwits or other jerks..the diversity of experiences, the validity of experiences, certain truly altered factors in the human experience like for instance the endorsement and prevalence of literacy...(apathetic self-deception)..but no shortage of centuries old methods of 'un-caring' and securing capital via understanding ppl's addictions for the worse to settle into a place of non-scarcity which could apparently last the remaining decades of your life and preferably 'than some' for your offspring..refer to the 10-11-2k19 cracked photoplasty comment section comment I copy and pasted on the 'Open to any replies: Diary of Polaris2088' /'past oriented' journal to understand how bloody upsetting and borderline unfeasible that is/seems to be to pull off; sans 'sacrificing' several years of the 'freedom and spontaneity' in childhood and living to bare w/possible judgements during said phase to avert not becoming not professional enough to pull off a 'successful' and life-long lasting 'at least' 'upper middle class' linear social clock achievement.
*sigh* I would hate to posisbly have to fib tommorow about not knowing the answers to the questions I have when I mean to chat w/my 'assigned representative' instead of the impromptu available one..
..of course it's 'not personal'...but that is kind of the problem..=_=..it never is.
There are some very 'crab in the bucket' elements in the work of that apathetic self-deception eat al
It's one thing to apparently be 'smart enough' to be say a doctor and the supposed consequent 'wage value' of being in a role w/hypothetical inelastic demand* and have an at least general comprehensive understanding of science but never really 'care much' for epistemology and epistemic intregrity..so when you hear about 'flat-earthers' being a thing but doctors not caring and said flat-earther's distribute disinformation and dismiss doctors as snobs with mercenary attitudes don't be too surprised by the reactions of indifference doing real damaging epistemic compromise b/c of d--n classist attitudes still being very real and destructive compromises, who-knows-how-many-decades after the espousement of arithmetic and literacy as minimal acceptability in mandatory labour investment processes..until you get to 'anti-vaccers' =_=..
*at least at face value
..going to try to not be distracted while biking by all this..'haves' and 'have nots' and the stupid contrivances which come when your 'trying to meet ends meet' and your questions are not even complicated ones.
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..when you recieve a voice mail recording from someone who answers the questions you brought up before, who sounds 'more comfortable to be around' but the response (numeric info involved or not) still isn't too clear...just moments after you thought you wrapped up 'online complain-y-ness'.