Poem
Is it autism?
is it adhd?
is it bpd?
*** off brain
stop trying to categorize things
trying to figure out a label
trying to pin down a gender
trying to create a perfect world view
im tired
can you not?
not stalk peoples’ profiles?
not feel sad when people are busy?
not fear you’re annoying?
i beg you brain
stop doing this
stop making me over explain myself
stop making me need to read things four times
stop making me hate crowds
why not brain?
*** why?
why do you make me cling to toxic people?
why do you make me fear long pauses in text message?
why do you give me such violent urges?
tell me
*** explain yourself
explain the urge to hurt people
explain the need to destroy
explain the desire for redlines
please brain
tell me the reason
the reason i obsess over people
the reason i don’t get out of bed
the reason i cant keep myself clean
Brain?
please?
please let me stop being paranoid
please let me live in peace
please let me catch a break
For once
could you please
shut the *** up
leave me alone
@Shawdios
That poem clearly portrays the problems that people with autism, ADHD and Bipolar face. It sounds difficult living with all those voices in your head especially when the people around you don't understand those diseases. Is that how you feel? @Shawdios Do you get all these voices in your head? Do you have to live with them? Do you struggle silencing them? I feel you. You don't have to do it alone. You are at the right site. You can connect with a listener at https://www.7cups.com/connect/ or browse listeners https://www.7cups.com/BrowseListeners/
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@JoyHappyNess
apologies, but i hadn't intended to portray myself as having a voice in my head, or Bipolar. it was intended as a venting of my frustrations of not being normal and how i cant stop overanalyzing myself. A scream at the self if you will. i suppose a lot of context is lacking, so i understand vague and cryptic things can be anything depending on the reader.
@Shawdios
or have bpd represent Bipolar disorder* (it was supposed to represent borderline personality disorder)
@Shawdios
All in all, that's a great coping strategy 😃. Venting using a poem.
@Shawdios
Hi,
I can relate to most of those things you mention in your poem, very nice!🏁