Polaris 2088: open to replies
'New attitude', new journal*.
*I think I 'got a fell' for how I type and I would rather do this than close my account and do this among other things all over again b/c I felt compelled to seperate myself from my older journalling habits. A journal which I feel was 'getting crowded':
https://www.7cups.com/forum/GeneralSupport_28/DiaryEntriesConnections_1597/OpentoanyrepliesDiaryofPolaris2088_207980/1/
Sleep therapy?; I don't self-confidence.
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tus pensamientos/ your thoughts:
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=UIR9Z_JdVhs
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Let me say this questionably crass thing since I it's better than lapsing but when it comes to say video compilations of attractive women on YouTube, I usually find that the music usually s--ks and is obnoxious and off-putting in how overt and unsubtle it is about getting attention: yet another factor in attaching only the contemporary, the youthful to sexual attractiveness.
When it comes to the attitudes to be 'immodest and enticing'...(regarding women)..when it comes to the realities behind how many degrees off it is from the reality of a prevalent attitude among sex trade workers..
'~' With males..the understated history of 'giggoloing'..how much of the former sentence can also be said of contemporary takes on *male* sex trade work..b/c sadly in the past of an 'undertaking of marketing labour' there are sad parts like the history of pederasty and what it meant for the perception, emergence and judgements on noncisgender heterosexual identities.
No joke: the 'Jubilee'' channel video about 'Do all strippers think alike' was d--n enlightening..
Before meaning to exercise
'Once upon a time' I actually did journalling in the subforums of the former 'nopornsupportforum'..
...understand that while I could go on about my..'cheesecake' based..struggles here, isn't quite the same when the possible expanse of respondents isn't focusing only on that problem is it?..
instituitionalized envy
maintaining agency over own psyche..
miccha sati || samma sati
like when you think music meant for meditation would make for awesome 'make-out or beyond' music..
" " fantasize how " "
Looking at you 'Theme of Guts' from 'Beserk OST''
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Lol--Theme of Guts is amazing.
miccha sati || samma sati
...Buddhism and the deaf community.
There is no achievement in my 'past oriented' and 'present oriented' journals having the same number of entries..it won't change anything.
Conan acting stupid..
I continually have to accept how I think the 'HISHE' channel won't do a video on 'Detective Pikachu'.
The risk that is having forgotten to charge my phone, the phone I use to call to be picked up after class ends at ~9:30 .p.m. , and think that it will 'hang in their' at the current ~10% it is at now before I proceed into a room w/no outlets afaik.
I don't take mendaciousness even w/in senses of humor lightly.
The 'fast and furious' movies basically are live action Hot wheels movies..
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It's fascinating how the instrumentals for 'Smokestake lightning'* (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Cc9asVO68Lk) blends w/the acoustic version of 'Duvet' by Boa (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O8TEHD9Fvpw)
The latter sounds like someone in active pain whereas the former by comparision sounds like a 'past tense' narration/ reminscence of pain. But there is that difference in location and decades--late 50's U.S. in contrast to early 90's Britain and what passed for rock, the differences in what passed for rock**
Not qualified to do/edit together a mash-up or to really understand this by Adam Neely https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gzZkqD-lRtc&t=2s
*obsessing over that song since this scene in Cadillac records https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C7MPWWXsucs--https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z6eZR--Z1d8
**not thinking about the Chuck Berry/Mos Def pt. of the movie but reflecting on how blues became as understood as 'proto-rock' b/c of that movie
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If I may, I most saw in "Fast and Furious" series the family part of things. I like how they are like a family. I raced cars as an amateur (rally, not boring tracks) and I know the thrill and love the cars...plus bonus I like Michelle Rodriguess alot, one of my favs female actresses (featured in Avatar too and some other tough sf) even if she is lesbian I love her😉. I like your insights on rock alot too, you are doing alot of thinking...