Polaris 2088: open to replies

Antonio García Villarán has yet to reply to me about an ebook---

when you refuse to argue w/your parents about conspiracy theories b/c it's not about the validity of your reasoning etc it's about the fact that you yielded 'to entertaining' them once you replied instead of remaining in non-reply

sometimes our relationship to the content, is more important than the content itself b/c the content itself is bunk

At one pt. I so stubborn to accept what yielding to that meant, what the 'empty but not disposable' space would lend itself to when it came to possibilities and the courses of actions which would emerge upon not fixating 'double-y' on content and relationship, via quasi-Derrida influence that I imploded..

When you remember sometihng crouching and looking for something in a 'dollar store' and someone comes up behind them asking them to not worry before being told to 'f off'.

>_< *shiver*..wishing that nothing weird happens to me at work. Wishing that no imcompetence from me happens at work.

Mexie--next time.

When your reminded that the true reason for taking your dog for walks is for them to be able to defacate outdoors.

Demoralization.

Went to bar/party/quasi-nightclub event on 'the spur of the moment' w/a more socially active brother given frustrations of social assistance location, experience and explanation to my mom.

What was there was what I expected from such an occurrence and fortunately we left less than an hour later and I had a meaningful experience of drawing in such an environment. I felt tedium b/c of the purposeless-ness but would you believe it's my younger sibling who admits to social anxiety?.

It's a mistake to ever think that 'quiet', tactiturn ppl can't hold a conversation. Better yet to admit at some pt. is how come they would like to hold a conversation w/you?. What makes you 'trustworthy' or qualified enough to hold dialogue about something apparently meaningful enough or 'interesting' enough to dialogue about *authentically*.

Taking into account life experiences plus experiences on this site.

When a pt. o'you feels like talking to yourself w/out the security of a mirror's reflection but you dread to do it b/c it would be the beginning of a habit which highlights your deterioration.

The way pornography evokes resourcefulness.

The way addiction evokes resourcefulness.
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Angry at how long it will take for me to feel like doing art homework again.

Liberation is using a long-stored nose hair trimmer.

Recuerdo a myself how it's preferable to watch a YouTube video a bit over a dozen minutes long than risk time on pornography.

Data plan limitations -~- + no WiFi..