Still depressed but taking control of my life

After reading through old journals and old 7cups threads, it's clear to me that I have a problem, a depression problem it seems. Although I'm still reluctant to check with a medical professional because I can't stand the possible med side effects, I've been exercising and fasting. Work is a current problem it seems. I realize I put all my energy in one thing (School, Relationship, Work) and I get disappointed and depressed if it doesn't satisfy me.

My current job feels like golden handcuffs. It pays well, benefits are good, I got promoted etc. But I burned myself out real good for the past few years of giving my 100%. I even complained about it in one of my old threads on how I struggle with work-life balance.

In my country, the pandemic is still going on. The vaccine rollouts is incredibly slow. I'm waiting for my company to give me a vaccine shot (private companies here can procure on their own, not relying on government to speed things up) and then go on a solo travel trip around the Philippines, take pictures, do art, maybe do some freelance writing but it's mostly just to take care of my mind, body and soul.

​​​​​​People around me think it's silly that I have a good thing going on and want to quit but the thing is I've spent most of my life doing "what I have to do" and neglecting things that "feel right" I've saved enough money to keep me afloat for atleast 6months and then get back to corporate.

Back in 2019, I almost got myself in a car crash deliberately out of boredom. In November 2020 marks a switch in my head that got me feeling like I can't spend my days infront of a computer, replying to angry users and making sure my boss knows I'm doing a good job.
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This 2021, I'm planning my escape route.

Thanks for reading.