Struggles

My dad has no money to eat

While I spend $60 on alcohol

My brother has cancer, diabetes and neuropathy

He has a better heart than I do, and yet, I?m healthy

I wish it were me

My friends didn?t go to school

They are ahead of me in life

My college friends all have jobs

I was dean?s list, and am unemployed

I try to be a good person and not hurt anyone

Why do I always get hurt?

I gave myself to her

She loves me

She wants to be and IS with someone else

Girl Y wants to be official

I still love "her"

I don?t want to hurt Girl Y

I live in a house

Not a home

I need to venture out

My parents don?t know anything about my life

What college did I go to?

What fraternity was I in?

I don?t admire my father

Her dad is the greatest dad I?ve met

I?m scrawny, pale and have acne

All my friends are tan and buff

Why am I holding onto her?

Why are we here?

Life is passing me by

Does time mask wounds or heal them?

Is this life?