[TW] Emo’s little emotional corner 🥲

😢 I am very sad. I just graduated high school and I never got to say goodbye to certain people who was always there for me 😕 and the people from school was the majority of my irl support network ;-; and now it doesn't exist anymore. UnU

😢 I’m so scared, I bought 4 online plushies and let’s just say I’m not allowed to do online shopping as my parents have severe trust issues with just basically internet.. I hope I’m not grounded next week T-T anyways, I deserve the plushies anyways as this week has been kinda trash ngl ☹️ I don’t wanna live my life for work.. yet my mum (also my supervisor) is kinda making me do that T-T I wanna work to live not live to work. T-T I hate my job so much, I cannot stand in one spot for 12 hrs packing rockmelons, that is way too many hours for a human being, yet I have to do it even when I’m in tears from being in pain.. I’m sick of it, I wanna quit my job T-T it doesn’t help that my anger issues are coming out because of it either.. so I’m hating myself more frequently :/

UwU today has been terrible but okie, 😕 I woke up at 4:30am and within 5 mins of being awake, my depression got bad.. I felt like I was gonna breakdown for no reason.🥲 and then I went back to sleep, I woke up again, finding out that it would be storming all day, and storms automatically send my anxiety crazy, so I ended up lurking cups for over 3 hours lost and feeling very alone, it even ended up with me going non verbal as it was kinda too much for me to handle.. and my plushies arrived today, they came 1 day early, and I absolutely love them. My parents weren’t even mad at me for online shopping, which I am grateful for. But there is another storm on the way, so I am preparing myself to practically shut down yet again. :/ and I still feel so numb, it was the same yesterday and I hope I don’t feel the same way tomorrow.😢 I’m also sad, I dearly miss quite a few cups friends, one passed away nearly 3 months ago, a bunch is on self care breaks and then there’s the ones who have left. I miss them all 😕 anyways, this is todays complaints for now.

😕 I’m back for another day of uselessly complaining, it really doesn’t matter but here I am I guess.🥲 anyways 👀.. today I cannot tell if I am numb or okay and just being like this all day is frustrating 😕 :/ idk why I have a cups diary, I’ve never even used a diary properly irl.. I guess today has just been another day full of zoning out but that doesn’t matter. Anyways, as an unimportant person 😮 i guess I can say this is the end of todays complaining. 😕

😢 time for another daily complaint 😕 not that it really matters anyways.. 4 days until the 3 month anniversary where a close cups friend poofed as they were passing away.. it still hurts a lot.. I 😢 I never got to tell them the biggest achievement I achieved at the time, which was me becoming a wise newbie. I feel very alone and lost lately 😔 I’ve even been zoning out everyday, today I zoned out for a complete hour.. that was a long time. Anyways I have nothing else to say except for that I am very sad atm, but that doesn’t matter either

😕 the past 24 hrs has sucked, 🥲 being triggered twice, having a panic attack and 2 breakdowns (one which I may have or haven’t spiralled in) no wonder why I feel sad, numb, lonely and kinda lost.😔 one of my dreams was shattered today so I’m not gonna be surprised if I have another breakdown today.. but yeah the dream was, Emo just wanted a pair of rollerblades and noting Emo’s parents are the fun police Emo can’t get a pair.. I just wanna move out of my home 🥲 but I cannot as I have no where near enough money to support myself 😔 I guess that’s all I have to say today.. beside I’m too sad to say anything else more

Tw car crash and death

🥲 Where do I start, my day isn’t even at the halfway mark yet and I’ve been triggered badly 😮 😕 this morning I heard a car crash that was nearby.. and 😣 it reminded me of how my mum passed away when I was 3 yrs old as she was in a car crash.. I was in it too, turns out I was the only survivor in that one car.. 😢 so my morning has been terrible..

😕 I guess I’ll be back later for my daily evening complaint

😞 I think there might be multiple breakdowns today.. currently been retriggered by this mornings trigger.. it’s been floating around in my head all day.. idk what to do tbh 😢 I’m lost as

😞 sleep didn’t even exist yesterday/today.. I felt so awful yesterday that I couldn’t mentally sleep until 3am and even then I didn’t want to sleep and I felt like I wasn’t gonna get any sleep at all. But I slept. Today is a bit better though, there’s not much about it but at least I have cups and music UwU and of course procreate (😮 which is my fav app) (yes I hate the 7 cups app but love the website) 👀 anyways, I guess I’ll be cupsing or drawing/editing all while listening to moosic 😀