This Pain Inside (Trigger Warning)

There’s a pain that’s inside

I don’t know how to explain

When i try i might cry

And you won’t know what to say

This pain inside builds and builds

Expressing it is hard; to understand you must be skilled

No wants to be brought down - listen to me moan

if share, i know, you’ll be wanting me to go

This pain inside is pulling me down

The hurt i feel when no-ones around

I pretend it’s not as bad as it is

I’m using my pillow as a tissue for tears

This pain inside its not simple at all

Physical and mental pain tight in a knot

I want someone to hear me and help me out

Professionals don’t care even when i shout

This pain inside has been present for so long

Up and down but never truly gone

I don’t know what to do - what is best?

All these emotions have been suppressed

This pain inside makes me feel trapped

Will it ever get better or take its own nap

I try to help myself - improving my care

No matter how hard i try - the thoughts are still there.

This pain inside is unbearable now

It’s too much to handle - quieten it, how?

Lost and confused, scared and upset

Help me please before i do something i regret.