Todays been a little rough
(warning slightly gruesome) Hi, so this one’s a strange entry. it’s not about depression or any mental health issues except it definitely is effecting my mental health. I’ve recently turned 18 and started being able to learn to drive. I’ve always been excited to drive. I pushed past my lessons really quickly and completed my theory with only one wrong answer so when my test was booked for today, i was super enthusiastic. after about 15 minutes of the test i had to take a left on a round about and the join and intersection with a speed limit of 60km/h. After driving for a few minutes on this road i noticed a gold nissan tailing me really closely. my instructor didn’t tell me what to do as it was a test and he wanted to see how i would handle the situation so at first a flicked on my hazard lights yet he still didn’t back up. Since it’s illegal to break check i couldn’t do that so i ended up indicating left to try get away from his tailing yet he swerved left. thankfully i hadn’t merged yet so i let him overtake me. He sped up really fast and overtook the person infront of me, he didn’t check properly and there was a motorbike there. As he merged i heard the car infront of me honk before i heard wheels swerve and my examiner emergency braked. after hitting his head on the dashboard and me hitting the steering wheel, i looked at him for a split second before seeing a man’s body roll on the road infront of me, followed by a trail of blood was his decapitated leg. the car infront of me had crashed into the back of the golden nissan which wiped out the motorbike driver, before he drove of as if nothing happened. thankfully the car infront of me stopped and stayed to check on the biker however when he got out his car and went to help the biker he picked him up saw his leg and noticed he was dead and dropped him screaming. my examiner rushed me out of the car and onto the side of the road incase someone came speeding and hit us while we were stopped however the only side we could safely stay was right next to the riders body. he had no eyeball and there was so much blood everywhere. i don’t even know how he lost his leg but after seeing this i never want to be on the road again. i feel sick to my stomache. after hitting my head my nose started bleeding and as i stood to the side holding my nose while sobbing we noticed how much of a splatter there was, over my car, the motor bike and th car infront while people passed by in horror he was already gone. i had just watched this happen and now we couldn’t do anything but watch him bleed out. it’s been over 14 hours and i’m not coping well, i can’t eat, i can’t drink. I just feel so sick. i don’t know what to do
@geockie1 So very sorry to hear this.
I hope things get better for you.
i appreciate this message, thank you.
@geockie1
Hello,
I’m very sorry you had this horrific experience.
I can’t imagine what you are going through right now.
I hope you can lean on your friends and family for support.
We are also here for you.
I hope you can heal with time<3 🌱✨
@innateJoy9602 Thanks for your support of this member.
You have a supportive heart, just wanted to let you know this.
Thank you so much, i really appreciate it.
Hello there @geockie1
I am really sad to hear about your experience.
I have been in a similar situation before when i was even younger. Trust me i m not gonna lie I had nightmares about the horrible tragedy i witnessed right in front of my eyes. When a truck ran over the body of a teenager. For days i could not help myself erase those memories in my mind. I stopped cycling on the road since then with dual fear.. one that i could be the next him.. 2nd I never wanted to experience such a terrible thing again.
It had only been a month since i learnt cycling i wasn't perfect i already had 2 collisions earlier with other cyclists but only my leg had bruises.
I didn't touch my cycle for a month but someday a frnd told me something. even though it's too blunt but probably the truth to survive in this miserable world. He told me "One of his uncle died in a car accident, but he never let that one off incident stop him From traveling in a car. He says billions of people meet road accident daily, a million of those unfortunately meet untimely death on spot. More than a billion people are cursed to witness such a tragedy. Another billion or two lose a close family member or friend due to road accidents. Half of them have to see it in front of their eyes.. if everyone thought never travelling on a road was the cure to protect ourselves from such disastrous experiences then we will nvr find someone to take a pregnant woman in neighbourhood who has noone at home but is experiencing labour.. We will never have buses carrying us to schools and what not. "
Initially it felt so rude that how rude and unsympathetic of guy to say that especially after losing his uncle.
But soon in a week i realised the meaning in his words. I hope you will too.
I started cycling again. I am a perfect cyclist today. even though i normally stay at home. hardly ever drive.
Hope it helps ❤️
Good luck 🤝🏻
One Amongst You
@oneamongstyou285 Thanks for sharing your story with us.
So sorry you fell off your bike.
I hope you feel better soon.
Thank you, I hope i can feel safe to drive again soon. I loved driving, i found it almost relaxing except yesterday was obviously a shock, it may take me some time but i do think i’ll get there again. I appreciate these words.
@geockie1
anxiety has been so high lately its so stressing
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