in the wonders of my mind💗.

_{I just kept getting worse tho. my cringey younger self was happy at least. atleast I was happy. I couldn’t be happy now and I know if I wasn’t as stupid and naive back then I wouldve just broken. at least I was happy. but I’m still gonna make fun of myself. there was so much behind that smile that I could never see again.} 

I had to so much light and love in me and it just hurts so bad

_{every time I come on here I just hate myself even more because I just feel so attention seeking- I know I’m not at all. but I hate it when people do it. and then there’re those 7+ people meeting up to start that same predictable *** that everyone’s so used to. it’s so predictable. but I just come here to talk and I already know most of the time I’m just alone but I feel bad because- I’m just. wasting my own space. inhaling too much oxygen and my presence is already bad enough.} 

_{literally no one cares no one *** cares just *** get over yourself get up and move on no one’s gonna think twice about you and no one’s gonna stop you when you’re talkin sui and no one’s gonna grieve or hurt when your full name is carved into a gravestone}

_{I feel like the way I talk is toxic to other people :’) because what if someone reads it and is like- oh :’) they’re right :’) but it’s just about me- really tho.} 

_{I think I’m almost out of flavorless gum :’)}

_don’t.

_{I’m so hungry. I’m so hungry but I can’t eat I won’t eat don’t eat just don’t just stop it I can’t do this I’m so tired I’m so hungry. I’ve went longer I’ll be fine. it’s not that hard.}

_{I’m so hungry.} 

at the beginning of the year I had a list of 28 goals. and I kept editing it until it went down to eleven. I haven’t made the smallest bit of progress in any of them.