in the wonders of my mind💗.

_{I don’t care about myself really but the only reason I’m not like decomposing is because I try and look good for others literally.} 

_{I spend 1265 every…3? weeks on my hair. because my stylist said my hair was "too curly" and I needed to get it done more often so it would look perfect. her words. I don’t think silk straight hair is perfect or curly hair is bad but like :’) but then again I feel bad because I have like 3 people working on my hair and they’re obviously tired I don’t expect them to admire my natural hair and it’s only expensive because of my hair texture :’) and I remember one of them got mad at me because I paid the normal amount and she hadn’t seen my hair texture before then she started *** talking in another language but yk. it’s fine.} 

_{my skin can’t be fixed tho so I don’t try. it just breaks every while and goes away somehow. and I remember in covid when we had to wear masks I was 8 and the mask made my skin so irritated and messed up so my dad took me to a doctor and she said I was naturally born with really sensitive skin. I give up on my skin I don’t even touch it :’)}

_{and I remember this one girl in my arabic class at the beginning of the year was just fully analyzing me then went "you’re really really pretty actually but you just need…"}

_{that same girl would always say something like "why don’t you have friends like you can literally make friends so easy you’re really pretty and and" I interrupted her there idk what she was gonna say☠️actually I was trying to interrupt her the whole time. and it was annoying me so much because she started trying to give me a 101 how to make friends for beginners/nsrs and she’d say things like "okay okay just listen to me go up to a girl and compliment her and.." like wtf if I could make friends I would. I know I sound mean but that was end of term 2 and now she’s just like everyone else :’) and I didn’t think she’d change but she did like every single other new student.} 

_{my dad hasn’t stayed this late since our grandparents came and it’s 2am}

_{my grandma woke up and I told her my dads not back yet and she just asked about my brother-}

_{she didn’t hear me I think :p} 

_{she’s so sweet I love her :’)}

_{and my aunts been messaging}