in the wonders of my mindš.
hey there :D hm. last time I checked you didnāt look like meš§makes sense doesnāt itšsince there can only be one *me*āØone of a kind now arent Iš/sar. one out of 8118835999āØš·can you imagine :0 o right- you can- becoss youāre also one of a kindš sorrysorry haha :Pš¤im just messing around xDšalso itās 2am- but shush no snitchingš¤«Iāll sleep in a whilešwhen Iām feeling a bit more sane :>šš©·
wanted to have my own space.š for thoughts feelings vents or just anything on my mind.š
to whoever'sĀ coming acrossĀ :'3šplease dont lurk here.š©· I know anyone can have access to this forumĀ :')šbut please be respectfulš©·.(but honestly..I know someone will either way :Pš yāall get crazy nosy haha- itās alright.šnothing too interesting will be here anywayšif you would like to come in and be supportive itās completely okiešbut please donāt make it a regular or "normal" thing if that makes sense. just have a sort of limitšbecause Iād still like this to be just my space ^-^š)
oh and my dad called to, he wanted to tell me to make sure I donāt eat too much so I donāt gain weight
I literally saw him take a picture of me on a hospital bed like can you not and whatāre you gonna do send it to the family group chat?Ā
I just think life goes by a little too fast to just sit around and be sad weāre all struggling just stop
I had a friend and afterĀ she thought I was dead she just completely switched up her whole personality
and I feel like itās my fault
what if me being depressing all the time makes people feel forced to say something like I remember that one day I mentioned something I wonāt say now but suddenly itās like everyone just :ā) well they left again right after but.Ā
I feel bad I complain too much and I obsess over small stuff in like all of my friendships and I mess everything up
I donāt know what to say because. I donāt want to think about anything bad right now. okay well of course I am but maybe typing it out would make it worse?Ā
I think itās okay to be alone
i guess
im fine without people stressing me out
my second uncle (itās easier to think of them by an order if that makes sense? I have 4 uncles) was mad at his daughter (my cousin) for not facing her problems (something about a lawyer test and she made it so that she does it past the time she was supposed to I think and it has a bunch of great opportunities if she makes time to study etc thatās why he was mad) and then I guess to release his anger? he started yelling and saying that my problem is that Iām shy and I need to face my problems and etc et+ cetdtc instead of avoiding them like his daughter.Ā
Iām not avoiding my problems. and Iām not shy either you ever think I just donāt wanna talk to you?Ā
actually. now that I think about it
"nervous or timid in the company of other people."
but still I donāt like the word and itās my problem why do you care. go fix your problems? or talk to your daughter. he said he doesnāt wanna talk to her cause heās mad at her.
iiiiiii um sound really mean :ā) Iām sorry. *takes it back* Iām not mad at him. Iām not even mad at all Iām just being stupid
I think Iām done with trying to change myself for others
I am proudly myself/j
