in the wonders of my mind💗.

_{6:49am. nvm im back} 

_{i calculated this yesterday xD}

_{I leave at 7:15 :’) I get there by 7:16. I get to second floor by 7:19. I hide until 7:40 and then I go to my lead class. (5 minutes before the national anthem goes  off - 7:45- because after national anthem you’re late)}

_{6:54. that took me 5 minutes because I kept zoning out-}

_{6:56 I got distracted.} 

_{I don’t have anything else to do. I wake up insanely early because I hate rushing and I like making sure I have everything and I got everything I need and I’m ready and I like taking my time. it’s just a lot less stressful.}

_7:00am. 

_7:01am

_{I’m not gonna look at the time anymore-} 

_byebye

_{7:26am. hiding.}

_{I’m hiding until I don’t have the option to anymore}

_7:27

_7:28

_{I feel insanely alone.} 

_{I’m officially halfway through the week now :’) yayyyy… :p}

_{I’m gonna fail my math baseline I want to be in the lowest set} 

_brb

_{you know before with the guy that was being targeted I felt bad but he genuinely seemed like he didn’t care} 

_{but now I feel really really really bad :’) to the point where I was thinking of like giving him a note being all like you’re really smart don’t let them get to you etc etc}

_{he’s actually a lot smarter than I thought he was. he knows so much my brain could never know all of that at the same time or understand it either} 

_{i had my bag searched. because they thought I stole something from him but seriously why me I didn’t do anything I sit close to him but not that close I’m the nicest to him I don’t laugh at everything he says or does and there were so many other people that would’ve definitely done it. and you know it was my IT teacher he wanted to get my hoy to search my bag like I swear I was so mad but hurt bro I thought you liked me. I was gonna do great things and ***. and ofc it wasn’t me they found out who it was. they started with my bag and went around} 

_{lol I’m gonna stop- I’ll stop.} 

_{okay wait.} 

_{today :’)} 

_{english was sad and lonely. arabic I ran out of the class. I kept trying to ask the teacher for help because she said if you don’t understand a question don’t just sit there raise your hand and ask me, and I did and she yelled at me to read the question and answer it it’s easy. so I spent the rest of that lesson trying to and break started and she wouldn’t let anyone that didn’t finish their work go. but that’s not fair and she doesn’t have the right to, a class came and the teacher was like give us 2 minutes and she told us we’re all gonna walk out together and continue doing the work somewhere. I just got my bag and ran out while she wasn’t looking. and some other people did too. I’m just like not today I’m not doing this today it’s my *** break it goes by instantly and I’d rather not suffer with her.} 

_{IT was a baseline test paused with the incident thing}

_{science was lonely.}

_{math was literally miserable *** shoot me miserable not the subject the people and the feeling I felt so horrible there} 

_{history was sad but more like I just want to get this over with. I kept checking the time it was passing so slow. teacher accidentally played an inappropriate video. we were put into a new seating plan and I’m close to someone I won’t talk about but I just really didn’t want to sit close to them they were the first person I thought about when the teacher started putting us in a seating plan I was just hoping we’d be on opposite sides of the room}

_{im trying to think about some good stuff that happened today. but I haven’t even mentioned any of the bad stuff.} 

_{it felt sort of good running away from arabic, and………….oh *** I don’t know :’) that’s good enough. yeah it is :3}

_{and now I don’t want to. I’m gonna go do something to distract myself. activity over negativity *cool emoji* /j/j/j/j}

_byebye.