in the wonders of my mindš.
hey there :D hm. last time I checked you didnāt look like meš§makes sense doesnāt itšsince there can only be one *me*āØone of a kind now arent Iš/sar. one out of 8118835999āØš·can you imagine :0 o right- you can- becoss youāre also one of a kindš sorrysorry haha :Pš¤im just messing around xDšalso itās 2am- but shush no snitchingš¤«Iāll sleep in a whilešwhen Iām feeling a bit more sane :>šš©·
wanted to have my own space.š for thoughts feelings vents or just anything on my mind.š
to whoever'sĀ coming acrossĀ :'3šplease dont lurk here.š©· I know anyone can have access to this forumĀ :')šbut please be respectfulš©·.(but honestly..I know someone will either way :Pš yāall get crazy nosy haha- itās alright.šnothing too interesting will be here anywayšif you would like to come in and be supportive itās completely okiešbut please donāt make it a regular or "normal" thing if that makes sense. just have a sort of limitšbecause Iād still like this to be just my space ^-^š)
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I was so sick yesterday I got sent home at the beginning of second lesson and today I didnāt goĀ
I wanna talk about something serious I did but idk if I should because itās soā¦serious. that if anyone that knows me irl finds out my life might just be ruinedĀ
idk how I did it
Ā itās not bad as in illegal just
im 14
barely
idk I shouldnāt have but I couldnāt and I felt like itĀ
Iām making it sound really bad T^T but itās not bad as in you should stop talking to me bad itās bad as in Iām so sorry you felt the need to do that bad like it shouldnāt have been that bad for me to the point where I couldnāt not do it
ā¦..
yeah you get it/j it makes senseĀ
and Iām gonna do it again.Ā
okay Iām back to talking about itĀ
im only gonna do it when- I really feel the need toĀ
next week.Ā
incase it sounds like it itās not anything like vaping/smoking etc Iāll never do any of that- no judgement itās just not for me ? xDĀ
I really wanna talk about it but Iām scared š Iām gonna wait in a queue at this point Iāll yap about it to some random newbie listener idkĀ
anywho Iām gonna stop talking about it.Ā
I wouldāve been inā¦music. right now. awww I kinda like music
Iām so sick I was gonna try to come today (not that I wanted to-) and I even set an alarm and had everything ready but I couldnāt and now Iāve been lying down all day and I got up once to get medicine
ive been sleeping all day too. youāre supposed to like heal in your sleep or something why am I so sickĀ
is it weird that I only just realized Iām home aloneĀ
I wouldāve been in english right now.Ā
I wouldāve been omw home right now
Iām tired but Iām not ..after school tired and it feels weird because I guess now Iām used to itĀ
I actually did wait in the queue and I actually did get a newbie listener
I kid you not I genuinely sent over 100 pms or somethingĀ
they seemed sweet Iām just really sure they couldnāt understand what I was sayingĀ
um to put it into perspective when I was talking about getting graped they went āWhyyāĀ
and other than that the only thing they replied to was halfway through the rant I went sorry brb and they were like itās okayyyĀ
and then I said Iām sorry for dumping so much on you and etc etc andĀ
itāss gettingg
really really badĀ
idk what to do
but shut off and do it again and again and not be able to talk about it until it drives me insaneĀ
my friend told me when they get back to school they have something important to tell meĀ
and I was like
is it good or bad
and until I get a reply Iām gonna be staring at my screen like itās holds the secrets of the universe.Ā