in the wonders of my mind💗.
hey there :D hm. last time I checked you didn’t look like me🧐makes sense doesn’t it😛since there can only be one *me*✨one of a kind now arent I😁/sar. one out of 8118835999✨🌷can you imagine :0 o right- you can- becoss you’re also one of a kind💖 sorrysorry haha :P🤍im just messing around xD💞also it’s 2am- but shush no snitching🤫I’ll sleep in a while😁when I’m feeling a bit more sane :>😛🩷
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idk how to start this
I was actually writing a post then like thankyou for the upvotes 🩷 they actually help then I was like okayokay and I had a whole 4 paragraphs written after that (I didn’t even get to what happened)
and yeah. this time I didn’t fall asleep tho!!! it was just my dad he kept like idk and then a lot after I did fall asleep
ill talk about it later
but guess what.
we got back our marks for the end of half term maths test
i got a 6/20.
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my best friend she’s really smart she’s smarter than me in like a lot of stuff
she cheated too tho ( the test was so hard even for the really smart kids )
she got a 1/20
some other people got a 1/20
the person that got the highest got a 14/20
this girl in my maths class she’s also in my lead class she got 11/20 and she was crying so hard until the end of the day and I only noticed like a while after she started crying and her eyes were red and omg and I was like (her name) are you okay and this girl was like bro have you been asleep you just noticed she’s been crying this whole lesson
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I felt so bad tho. I feel so bad oh my god :’) I’m gonna talk to her tomorrow
I didn’t even pass tho. when I saw my mark I started laughing- not because I was happy. but because like. it’s so bad. it’s so bad it’s funny like how do you get so stupid omigod-
oh and one guy got a 0. I feel bad for him too. I know in year 7 he used to have like those people with him for like the special needs and stuff that but he doesn’t anymore
and we’re not exactly friends he does it to everyone but every time I see him I’m like hey (his name) and I give him a fist bump and sometimes he just randomly talks to me (but he does it to everyone) so he was basically just really sad and I was like (his name) are you okay and he was talking about how he got a 0 and he’s so stupid and
I tried being like it could’ve been worse but I couldn’t finish it cause yk but it’s okay yk so instead I was like you know you tried your best and that’s all that matters (cheesy ik) and I was like it’s okay you’ll do better next time
i think I was making him feel worse but he was fine a lil later
ummmmmmmmm
I’m tired.
theres sm
drama.
rn
im not involved
some of my friends are
and my best friends involved in some other drama so I get looks when I’m with her but it’s not that bad
I went to the gym yesterday.
I ate well yesterday too
the reasonnn- related to what happened (that word keeps autocorrecting to that but it feels wrong is it spelt right-)
I’ll talk about it later still I’m too tired
oh right!! that guy that I was talking about that got bullied and stuff I sit next to him in I.T and I’ve been talking to him more and like I’ve found out sm about him
hes really not that bad :p
he kind of has friends now
like idk about friends that he’d hang out with in breaks and stuff but he does talk to people he has more bullies than friends but I genuinely don’t think it bothers him
honestly. people bully him a lot more um- boldly like. I already talked about how someone said smth about him in their English speech but he’s a lot stronger than I would be in that position I’m glad he’s still happy tho
I’m so tired. I know I already said it but- I’m so tired :’)
okay bye now <3
(I just realized how random this was xD)
something got in my-
okay yeah idk my left from my right
right I think
today something got in my right eye and I took off my glasses and I couldn’t open that eye and I was like rubbing it and my other eye was tearing up and my eyes were red ;-;
and like 2 people thought I was crying and they asked if I was okay which aww they cared but I was just like no sorry something just got in my eye
my arabic teachers been a lil bit nicer lately but nicer as in not nice just horrible but to the other kids in my class and not fully targeting me
oh *** that that reminds me I have arabic homework I haven’t started and it’s due tomorrow :’) okay bye-
I just checked my schedule why do I have arabic first lesson😭
its okay it’s okay we’re gonna let it be a problem for tomorrow
I don’t even get it like I suck at arabic and you actually hate me no despise no- loathe xD no she. she like eurgrhehtesjsbs she hates me so much but I never do anything I just try my hardest and obviously *obviously* that’s not enough so I’d rather move to a set where I’m working at a like good level and like I understand and I’m like on track with the subject
I push myself and challenge myself and yk give my 110% effort and stuff but honestly atp maybe it’s just the teacher the teacher doesn’t teach she just yells at you for not already knowing the stuff before she teaches it (and she never ends up teaching it.)
mmmm :') I would’ve had an after school detention by now. 5 signatures but- I erased 2 of them cause the teacher would ask for a pen from me and I’d give her my erasable pen
and they were gone perfectly and then I got 2 over them and another so that’s 3 and 2 erased I would’ve filled in a full card
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idk. I’m not like
idk.
im a good student :')😭
standards are stupid or at least my school’s
*** I try so hard idek
