in the wonders of my mind💗.

my family found out abt smth I’ve been hiding since janruary.

i thought I could make it to a full year without anyone finding out

i was so close

December 13 would’ve made a full year. 

anyways my dad found out first it was idek he just reacted weird like you’re supposed to (anyways this was deleted xD but basically you’re supposed to react a lot more aggressively than that like…physically :>) but

he reacted weird

then he just left my room, went right for the front door and he hasn’t been back since 

btw it’s not like my dad changed he (hit) me like 2 days ago

actually yesterday

and every time I try to talk to him he’s on that site/app nd just replies with like automatic responses and doesn’t do anything about it 

I feel like he’s on that thing nd then when he looks up and around and snaps back into reality he just hates it so he’s so mad at you for no reason

he normally has a privacy screen thing on but sometimes I’m *right* there or right behind him I’m not behind him for any weird reason it’s just how my house looks it’s hard to explain 

bro I’m these days I’m so hungry all the time idk why like I get full but it’s never enough like I can eat a crazy amount of food in one sitting and still want more 

I should start a mukbang./j

today was such a weird day 

Tw sensitive topics? Like race I think and umm..race and ethnicity and idk racism xD <3 

okay so I’m sorry but I barely know anything about like history and the generations before us and who christopher colombus is or what happened in ww1 oh wait

we’re taking abt that right now

its either ww1 or ww2

genuinely all I know is

land

money

blame

ummm…

there was another one 

oh right and I know archduke ferdinand idk if it’s like related or not

and i know

germany was involved

and russia 

the teacher teaches well idk what’s wrong with me tho 

but right I was saying I’m really bad at history like really bad and geography too seriously I still get so shocked when I find out yk yk I just found out uae was a country. I thought dubai was a country..

and I’m being serious I just found out Australia was a continent I’m not even joking I couldn’t believe it I thought Australia was like a normal place in idk the US or smth 

I just looked it up and it is a country!!! but it’s also a continent…

it’s just confusing it’s not even my fault atp 

but yeah okay so my brother keeps saying the n word but like ofc he is most people at school do weather it’s appropriate for them to say it or not

and when I tell him to stop saying that he basically tries to explain how

our ethnicity is black

so it’s okay for us to say it 

which. no its not. I didn’t even know what ethnicity was but our ethnicity isn’t black

and like I’m sorry I know I sound stupid this whole post makes me sound stupid but I kinda am anyways I’m sorry but like isn’t the word like years ago or smth it used to be used at black people as a like insult? that’s why idk….right? and btw I did go on chatgpt and google trying to learn I was like the meaning the background and trying to learn abt it but I seriously don’t get it 

okay. I’m so lost😭so when I looked up Australia and it said country it said country in Oceania and I was like what the fart is oceania like since when was that a name on the globe so I look up oceania and why does it say it’s a continent 😭😭 so I looked up 7 continents and it’s not on there so I’m like searching a lot and then in the People also ask section I find why is oceania not in the 7 continents and it says it does not meet the definition of a continent but why does it say it’s a continent then😭and smth else said oceania is generally considered a continent and what is zealandia and why is it known as the planets forgotten eighth continent and why are people talking about there being a 9th continent😭

why are north and South America continents but Americas just a country ;-;

does it make sense. maybe it’s just me

but not all of its just me it is kind of confusing..😭

I looked it up again like the continents in order and this time oceania is on there and apparently I think Australia and oceania are like the same thing ? how’s australia in oceania xD how’s oceania not really on the 7 continents but it is xD is it australia or Oceania or maybe they’re just different 

……..

Eurasia is a thing now

its 6 continents now..it says 6 continents..

Europe and Asia are just one

;-;

I thought Europe was in Asia so I looked up Europe expecting it to say city in France or smth but it actually is just a continent 

thank godd I needed that I swear- 😭

I slept in like the afternoon again and it was so nice I fell into such deep sleep and I woke up randomly and didn’t even think abt it I just went back to sleep

i loved it

but that means I’m not getting sleepy anytime soon 

in pe we were playing basketball (I was goalkeeper and I was doing so good but anyways xD like my teacher hates me but she kept going goooddd nadia well doneee !! from across the thing like thankyou thankyou sm xD) 

and yk that whole thing that went down last year :> and throughout the years I’ve been in the school with this one girl(not even always to me only near the end I was kinda targeted we were like best friends at some point so I’m not saying it jst because I was the victim)maybe well anyways she’s like genuinely the worst of literally all the popular or chamaki or just those group of girls like she’s genuinely just the worst of them all she’s horrible and genuinely like not a good person :’) I know a lott about her like a lotttt

anyways so her she was part of the team we were playing against and so she’s running and her vape falls out of her pocket and literally everyone stops everything and the teacher picks it up and looks right at her and she’s like you can see it on her face she’s mad and disappointed and just mad really mad 

idk what to think 

I was like at first ik like everything that happened and stuff and what she’s like but I kinda feel bad cause you know she’s done for 

_{and then I kinda remembered how…her parents are💀she has the most loving but also careless parents to ever exist. they love her so much but they also don’t care what she’s doing like if she wants to then why not, they know she vapes but it’s not just that like they know she vapes at school and skips and stuff so that’s fine but also in year 7 her mom got her into a thing where she can skip any class any day but it’s not just a thing ofc she got her into a thing for like special kids i think so she can just randomly go to a counselor or helper teachers or smth but she never actually goes and her mom got her into that only so she can skip, every time she writes herself a fake note for pe and the teacher doesn’t trust it she calls her mom and her mom always alwayss improvises like oh yeah I was carrying groceries so I told (her name) to write the note but yeah it’s true or smth and every time she’d get a signature she’d tell her parents and trust me the next morning it’ll be taken care of nd yk etc. she is kind of really spoiled too. like kind of really spoiled(50k a month is insane but tbh I can’t relate to having money so i can’t talk)  nd the way she acts is just kind of really annoying} 

anywayyyysss what was I saying

right so I think being caught with vape at school is like a B5

yup I found the behavior policy of our school this year and these are the things that would get you at a B5

B5

・・・

Truanting (leaving school site)

Internal truanting - repeat behaviour x3

Fighting (punching/kicking)*

Fighting resulting in injury

Smoking/E-Cigarettes- including consuming and selling/intending to sell

• Vaping - including consuming and selling/intending to sell
• Serious misdemeanours e.g. drugs, vandalism, racism, secularism, abusive language
• Carrying dangerous equipment (a weapon/replica weapon)
• Bullying
• Social media misuse

• • Theft

  Academic malpractice

  Threats or intimidation

  Gross misconduct that is not in the power of the school to address or modify

  
  

   the font isn’t that cute btw xD it changes when you paste it here

  nd the consequences 

  • Behaviour is referred to Head of Year • Head of Year and SLT meeting with parents Issuing of stage letter from Head of School • 1-day Internal exclusion Repeated B5 behaviour: This will result in 2-day internal exclusion • Three stage letters will result in permanent expulsion

  
  

   she got caught more than once so idk 

  anyways

  its okay

  
  

  i have to go tho

  au revoir everyone!!<33 (I’ve been practicing my french :>😁)

  
  
  

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I missed you soul <3 how’ve you been 💙