in the wonders of my mind💗.

the longest winternbreak kve ever been through I swr 

anyways

i prayed today

:> 

IK I should like

i should always pray 

but inhaven’t been idk

i woke up today

ns I felt

the sharpest 

pain in my chest 

;-;

so I prayed

nd

i showered

nd

i even ate breakfast bro I thought smth was hapoening to me

nd maybe it’s partially bc I’m definicient in every5hing 

nd

idk

itsnp 

its

dangerius to lose over 1kg a week

nd without any extra watermweight or without eating before like straight in the morning with nothing extra or anything that might make it more inaccurate 

I went down

3kgs

nd ik it’s not inaccurate like I stayed on my oribinal weight for a while then it;jst dropped nd stayed like that 

so Imwas like 

I wasn’t even thunking 

but

yk 

maybe imdont wanna d.ie 🤷‍♀️ cs i get scared

everytime idk 

i feel like

i might 😭 or smth

like

k somehow I don’t rememb3r 

but i got a big dash scratch mark whatever 

on

my wrist

nd i strataed crying 

ndand it kept bleeding 

nd i was scared

idk 

abyways 

im gonnago 

bye 

how do you accidentally click post.. like. I’ve accidentally clicked enter or send before and sent messages early because I meant to click smth near it or smth but. how do you accidentally click post ;-; 

Im talking abt myself btw. how did I accidentally click post. 

I was supposed to start working on a forum on december 16 nd post it by New Years ( it wasn’t anything related to New Years I was jst posting it by New Years) 

and 

I don’t rlly. like. there won’t be a new forum posted by me by New Years :’) 

my dad came back from “work” at 4am yesterday. or today idk. 

12pm marks a new day right but only when there’s..two? like from 12am to 12pm that’s still the same day and ;-; yeah.. today? 4am today.

bro I have such weird dreams I swear. I don’t even remember most of it 

also

i slept :> 

at 4am. when my dad came home but

i still slept 🤷‍♀️ 

yayayayyayayayyaya

guys remember that time I got sexually assaulted in the crawl tunnel thing in the kindergarten playground. 

I was jst standing alone watching everyone play 

and drinking strawberry milk ;-;

and they were like  

Do you wanna come play with me !!? I don’t have anyone to play with

I was like 

okay !!!

… 

anyways

that was random 

I jst

remembwred it

idk

anyways

It didn’t let me make a travis scott pfp 😔

I’m going to a concert in January :> I can’t rlly say for who cs you’d know where I live ;-; but it’s a rapper that I very much love and I’m very much excited :> 

It’s about events in my life and like

yk

this is why

why I killed myself

;-;

lmao

i jst

i feel like

its

obvious but 

jst incase it wasnt

nd no I’m not in crisis

*** 

idc

anyways.