in the wonders of my mind💗.

im so mad bro my dads been looking at me weird all day nd I keep getting mad nd telling him to stop nd btw like me nd my dad r smth else lately or mostly ever since like idk around when like I kinda changed in good nd bad ways but a lot has happened since then anyways 

I keep yelling at him nd im like what’s wrong with u are you okay 

nd I say things like ur so weird whats wrong with u 

hes looking at me like he wants it or smth like im ur *** daughter istg this isn’t ego it’s disgust I don’t want my dad to look at me like that or get used to it plus isn’t he embarrassed i literally called him weird nd creepy nd I told him to stop looking at me like that nd I called him weird nd said what’s wrong with u nd I yelled nd he doesn’t stop

I’m only sitting in this room for an hour cs my brothers having some class like tutoring chemistry or idk man idc abt my brother nd they don’t trust me so like I have to be in the same room as my dad so they make sure I don’t go out to annoy him or smth idk but lowk valid smth I wld do 

anyways jst now he kept doing it nd like continuing right after I’d yell at him so the last time I ws like bro ykw im leaving 

i *** hate being around that ***

I *** hate him

i hope he gets arrested nd I move in w my mom

but the chances of that r like 5 rn

oh forgot to mention 

he lost

every

single

case

cs she kept coming in w more stuff nd idk nd he lost everything nd now he’s supposed to be behind bards but like yk 

mad life

anyways 

I’m sorry I need to type in white text for a while please read everything I’ve said tho since the “…” I don’t remember most of it nd it’s probably not that important tbh I jst want wtv I said to be read idk man 😭 

no but actually

pls

spare some minutes 😭 this place is so empty now

nd like

distant

for the first time if I completely couldn’t use cups anymore like lost my account everything I wldnt even care that much

sad but im pretty sure it ws worse when I ws like 24/7 mf ADDICTED to being on here so yk 

its chill

guys im sad I js say that in like any given circumstance 

cs yk

its chill

that reminds me one time I went to the doctor idk why *** I ws like sick or smth but I don’t rlly go to doctors when im sick idk I don’t remember anyways 

oh brb

um

what the ***.

TW caps

PH YEAH IICKED THE GSCE THING I FILLED OUT GHE FORM ND IM SO HAPPY I ALR KNEW 2 PF MY OPTIONS WERE GNNA BE LIKE PSYCHOLOGY ND THEN BUSINESS THEN SOMEONE HELPED ME PICK MY THIED WHICH THIRD IS LIKE THE OPTION THATS JST SMTH U WANT TO DO IT CAN BE SO STUPID ND THATS WHAT I DID IT DOESNT HAVE TO BENEFIT OR HELP UR FUTURE IN ANY WAY ND WTV LIKE ITS JST A SUBJECT THAT MAKES IT A LIL BIT EASIER RATGER THAN HARDER LIKE IT CAN BE ART OR DRAMA OR MUSIC OR HISTORY OR PE OR IDK DESIGN BUT MINE IS SO LAID BACK I CHOSE FOOD TECH ITS SO BIG BACK BEHAVIOR ND I LOVE IT LIKE U GET TO LEARN HOW TO MAKE FOOD ND IT CAN LIKE HELP U WHEN U GO TO COLLEGE PR UNIVERSITY OR SMTH SO LIKE U LEARN HOW TO MAKE FOOD FOR URSELF ND JST IN GENERRAL ITLL HELP ND YOU ALSO GET TO EAT LIKE OMG A CLASS WHERE I CAN BE A BIG BACK I LOVE IT SM IM SO HAPOY YAYAYAYAYYAYAYAYAYA

my keyboards starting to glitch

I LOVE BEING A BIG BACK OMG I SNHSJSMSJSUWJSH 

btw guys im joking but im also kinda being serious

i did pick food tech

it’s so chill man I jst love it also my dad knows he said it’s not gnna do anything for my future like BRO HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO LEARN HOW TO MAKE CHOCOLATE BROWNIES (and taste them 😋) ??

but he let me do it either way cs ain’t no way im gnna live a miserable life js cs some dad wanted me to do further maths nd become a doctor or smth like no 

im so happy abhsjsjajajajandhs 😁

what the mood swings 

I’m so confusing

brb

hey guys so like basically my dad sent this thing to the guy saying like he’ll bring the idk man there we a word for it but basically me nd my brother nd we can like argue ourselves so like he doesn’t have to get arrested

but the guy denied the thing 

nd they still want to arrest my dad

bro I don’t get it tho like I’m pretty sure I alr said this but like they know where we live if u wanna arrest bro so bad js come here nd do it u don’t have to like wait for him to go out or smth 

but yh idk man

also I just like just just just found out bcs I okay look

i typed out this whole thing then had to go then my dad came nd jst told me this now nd I’m rewriting the thing now so

i jst found out

tmrw we’re not going to skl nd like it’s actually happening we’re all going to court nd arguing for my dad 

i swr i actually wanted to go to skl

like I ws saying tday tho skl ws rlly rlly fun

skls been rlly fun like actually 

oh also my grandpa got hurt rlly rlly bad tday nd he’s getting surgery nd he’s like half functioning 

but yh tday skl ws rlly fun tho

i habe a few things I’m kinda sad abt 

but yh

um

i saw carrot tday

nd laces 

nd circle built guy 

nd yh hes built like a circle 

idk his real name

all I know

is his personality is ***

ur jst a person to me until the personality 

if ur nice then I’ll think positively of u but if ur personality is *** like ur *** then I’m gnna see the worst bcs no *** it’s all I’ve seen from u 

like u cldve jst been that nice chill guy in my year but now ur that ugly mf 

anyways

so i saw laces nd his friend we don’t have a codename for nd circle nd carrot nd bro when I tell u istg in lunch they were following us. like actually following us wherever we went 💀 cs me nd my friends don’t jst sit in one place in lunch like we drop our bags where we’re having our next class nd we walk around nd these *** were literally jst walking with us all of lunch 

bro at some point we were making fun of smth related to them nd when i tell u we were being so annoying like I’m surprised no one threw hands we were actually jst being mad annoying nd they cld tell we were talking abt them nd laughing at them we were being so annoying why the *** wld u wanna be around that

for all of lunch 💀 

also my friend told me

laces 

ws staring at me a lot 

which no *** that whole group ws staring at me the entire time 

every single time i see any of these four *** they don’t jst stare

they ***

harass me with their eyes 💀 

im not even joking tho they stare a lot nd it’s like everywhere they go they’re like looking for me then they see me nd they genuinely won’t stop staring 

it doesn’t *** matter if someone threatened them with an atomic bomb bro they jst 

okay yk when like someone’s staring at someone nd it’s like that persons literally the only thing they’re focusing on rn nd the only thing they can focus on nd like everything around is like kinda blurry/background?? Idk if that makes sense. but that’s how they stare at me

but yh anyways u get it but she said to be specific she said laces ws staring at me like he wanted to say smth but he cldnt 

like he ws scared or like shy or smth

nd i kept asking her abt it nd she ws like rlly sure

also

me nd this friend r rlly rlly good at reading facial expressions 

reading eyes nd jst faces in general im not even joking we can read faces so well nd with details like we cld legit find out why someone cld be moody or smth by looking at their face at that time nd not like stuff like oh this specific friend said this exact thing but instead stuff like you can tell by his face that most likely he had a fight w one of his closer friends nd it’s always accurate 

it does work better if we’re used to the person more if that makes sense like not knowing the person amazingly well jst being used to them like even jst seeing them in the hallways often that’s enough 

but yh idk what that ws abt

ik i like don’t rlly talk abt anything anymore but that’s cs it’s all so so much but for a little bit of context laces used to like me but at the time we like just started being friends bcs like

okay wait this is hard to explain without a lot of context

okay so u guys know i had isolation with 2 guys nd they were involved in the same fight nd long story short a lot happened i added his *** nd on the first day of talking out of skl he’s already giving signs 

so my *** cldnt jst keep talking to him nd like hope he loses feelings 

instead I jst kinda forced him to lose feelings by making myself seem like i have the absolute ugliest mf personality bro I’m not even joking i hated the person i ws pretending to be that’s how bad it ws

nd then um

idk how

but like we were on break at the time right

so we get back from break nd this is after everything that’s happened so many conversations with this guy until i assumed he got fed up nd we didn’t talk for a week

then we get back to skl

this is monday

not even first lesson like this is lead time nd I’m talking w my friends in the hallway 2 friends 

nd this guy like jst got here nd he’s walking past us nd I’m zoned out staring at him

this guy

after everything I’ve put bro through

hes smiling and waving at me.

nd i ended up talking to him but it ws kinda awkward

that same day 

i ws talking to a different friend this ws like when we had smth in assembly idk man it ws like smth smth day 

an event or smth

so we were in assembly like no one ws sitting down yet it ws rlly chaotic

nd out of the whole like everyone nd btw

its a lot of ppl

like 

skls overpopulated

Oh my god bro first of all context is too much for me to talk abt like again way too much happened second my dads being annoying as *** i hope he *** hurts himself nd i have to go bye 

OHHH MY GODDD

istg it didn’t even feel like i typed up that much

holy yap that’s like crazy 

guys yk after this week nd one more week we have a long break then when we get back from break we start term 3-

I went into the chatrooms tday (is that what we called it cs I actually don’t remember) for the first time in a loonngggg time now 

I went into all of them

hearted anyone that said hi

didnt rlly lurk jst kinda looked at what they were talking abt nd left

only person i knew in there ws a mod 💀