Alone
I’m alone.
Everyone leaves, they’ll lie and say they won’t.
I’ll open up and let down my guard, open up about my trauma since they want me to.
they want my honesty they want to see me weak and at my worst to show I can trust them.
But once I open up, once I do this and they see me at my worse they leave.
they don’t say why, they don’t say goodbye they just become a ghost.
A memory if you will and then I’m alone, I’m alone crying wondering what I did wrong if it’s my fault and I can’t shake they feeling of being alone in this world and wondering if it’s me, if I’m the problem if I’m just so broken that I don’t deserve love or friendship.
I’m alone.
@XDarkLilyX
I was once told, friends come and go like seasons. They really do. I have experienced that myself. It hurts for sure. But don't take it personally.
That’s honestly very true
@XDarkLilyX
people SAY they want honesty but in reality............. Many do not ...... i
If you are a person who is brutally honest and does not play the superficial game well......................
they do not hang around .............................mostly not about you but they KNOW they are faking in comparison to your honesty................. That may freak them out.... or remind them that their issues may seem petty in comparison....
Being vulnerable and then being abandoned ... it can feel like someone has ripped something painfully from inside. That happened to me. I am not sure what it is like for you.
It's been over a year. It still aches. I hope they are okay. I try to have compassion for myself. The self-doubt. Thank you for sharing your feelings.
Hello take care of yourself