Eva’s Crazy Mind
i’ve wanted to make a forum post like that for quite a while now, but never brought myself to actually make it. here i will write up all sorts of thoughts and vents, everything i need to get off my mind. it’s not gonna be positive or motivational, not even close. i personally don’t recommend reading it just because it doesn’t help lol. you’re welcome to read, replies are okay, just be aware that it’s gonna be a pretty dark place. i don’t usually ask for help despite telling everybody to. idk why. i’m not a very good example of what’s right to do. TW just in case, not planning to go that far but who knows.
i’m making myself this space because sometimes you can feel lonely while being surrounded by a million people and that’s nobody’s fault.
best wishes to you. ❤️
“do you know what they do to people who are a danger to themselves? they’re put in a madhouse”
“you don’t even do anything to help yourself”
“be honest, did you wear those long sleeves yesterday for attention?”
“your mindset can change with a snap. you just choose to think all negative all the time”
the f*cking “i’m sad to see you do this to yourself”
*** *** ***
@justmeeva
…the fact that she makes no effort… she doesn’t even try to understand. there’s a whole lot of other *** going on in life. so many other things that hurt 💜 so much that makes you overwhelmed 😔 so much to deal with every day. :( i’m so sorry that on top of all that she judges so much and doesn’t try to understand :( those questions and words… mm they v meanie mcbeanie 😞 *huggies eva friend if okie* i’m v sorry eva bean :(
@LoveMyMoonflowers
@justmeeva
gonna go i’m so *** done
@justmeeva
i relapsed.
i saw him and he said “ey that’s eva” and there was that other person i’ve been trying to forget too and i waved and smiled at them and then walked away and called my mom to pick me up and we came to her workplace and i went to the bathroom and i relapsed
