Eva’s Crazy Mind
i’ve wanted to make a forum post like that for quite a while now, but never brought myself to actually make it. here i will write up all sorts of thoughts and vents, everything i need to get off my mind. it’s not gonna be positive or motivational, not even close. i personally don’t recommend reading it just because it doesn’t help lol. you’re welcome to read, replies are okay, just be aware that it’s gonna be a pretty dark place. i don’t usually ask for help despite telling everybody to. idk why. i’m not a very good example of what’s right to do. TW just in case, not planning to go that far but who knows.
i’m making myself this space because sometimes you can feel lonely while being surrounded by a million people and that’s nobody’s fault.
best wishes to you. ❤️
i didn’t tell her what i use and mom said that if not with her present, i can tell the psychologist tomorrow without mom and well i agreed because yeah but i’m not telling that psychologist ***
@justmeeva Can't say I blame you for not telling her anything. She handle the first one horribly. I just - wow - ya know? You don't know this person - never talked to them before and you're supposed to just spill everything to them? In front of a parent? Omg no! I'm so sorry it went like this. They're both ***!
i fidgeted the entire time with my phone charger cord, i did say the bare minimum and nothing about what it’s really like or what i actually feel or think
i am not going to that zoom meeting between just her and i tomorrow. not *** happening.
what if i just-
ok nvm not gonna say it here
i’m done i’m done i’m so *** done
my heart hurts. it physically hurts.
@justmeeva
Eva, *hugs*, try to take a deep breath slowly
i somehow managed to convince mom to let me stay home and not do the second video call. she tried to change my mind at first but eventually gave up. i guess that’s good.
guilt guilt guilt guilt
so that was kinda terrifying
and long
