Eva’s Crazy Mind
i’ve wanted to make a forum post like that for quite a while now, but never brought myself to actually make it. here i will write up all sorts of thoughts and vents, everything i need to get off my mind. it’s not gonna be positive or motivational, not even close. i personally don’t recommend reading it just because it doesn’t help lol. you’re welcome to read, replies are okay, just be aware that it’s gonna be a pretty dark place. i don’t usually ask for help despite telling everybody to. idk why. i’m not a very good example of what’s right to do. TW just in case, not planning to go that far but who knows.
i’m making myself this space because sometimes you can feel lonely while being surrounded by a million people and that’s nobody’s fault.
best wishes to you. ❤️
it's almost like a nightmare. my solution? music. full volume, so i won't have to hear it all.
might go for a day or a few again. lol, “again”. might, not for sure, but might. hmm..
i made up my mind. i’m pretty sure. no big deal, just a few days.
12am. time to start with homework.
thank you mother for so kindly reminding me that it’s a bit late ❤️ /sar
she made herself sound like the victim again, as if it affected her in any way. motivation go poof. thanks a lot.
nearly 2am. see you.. later.
@justmeeva
🥺 i hope you’re safe and trying to be kind to you friend.
@LoveMyMoonflowers
*sending hugs to you if okay* 🩷
@justmeeva
hugs <3
hey girlie. just checking up on you. how you holding up?
@EmmyMarie06
i’m fine, a few little setbacks but it’s fine. thank you ❤️
@justmeeva I get it. "fine" is sometimes the only way to describe things. anything I can help with? honestly just dump a load on me please!!!
@EmmyMarie06
it’s really really nice of you, i appreciate it so much, but i don’t think there’s anything you can do, sorry. just the mood’s kind of on the lower side i guess. i’ll be ‘able to’ keep myself busy for at least some time tho, i have quite some stuff i should do. but really, thank you <3
@justmeeva oh ik that there's nothing I can do. but there are things I can say that might click in your mind. no 14 year old needs to feel like this. have fun with your stuff :)
*sigh*..
man i had already almost forgotten, i had already almost moved on, and then.. i get reminded again and i’m back to the start, back to remembering it all.
*sigh*..
to risk it and have a possibility of solving things or making everything worse, or to not risk it and keep it as it is, time passing, “too late” coming closer.
hmm.
tempting..
what if it fixes everything? but also, what if it ends everything?
…
i d k.
sometimes i wish i could stop caring so much about everything, even just for a day. but i can’t.