I need to break from using social media

Dear: Diary

Today I need to break using social media. Due to triggering my depression again.

I feel I am not fitted the society in my own country especially if you're intelligent and perseverance person.

I don't know if the intelligence is the curse?

I feel it's better to reside with other countries to show who am I and accept who am I. I feel as an Asian so many expectation you need to follow especially study and work. They do have hierarchy that oldest is the superior and you need to follow.

God please I wish for my future I need to reside with other countries us soon us possible. I need some fresh perspective like open about mental health problem, open about disability, neutral and accept other perspective. Give me more opportunities to improve my skills in music that never thought me in school and learn be more practical.

I never regret that I tried webinar in international I learned a lot especially the music education skills. And also honing my violin skills combined with technical and emotional expression.