Positivity drained 😴❤️🩹
hello my darlings, 💖 comments are more than welcome info don't know how positive this will be. One positive thing is I painted my nails💖😄 and I had so much fun too, funny how such a small thing can give you so much joy! 😊
it turns out I don't have to use me wife's computer to be on here, but maybe for back up. So far I'm doing the best I can do but it seems like I can't charge my social battery up, maybe it's because I'm so tired constantly in everyway. But but I am trying to remain a positive Raspberry❤️, it's just not easy to be there for everyone when you can barely be there for yourself, don't get me wrong I still show up for myself but it's nothing significant either....
One big thing about me is, I love love to show up for myself that way I know I can show up for others the same loving way. 💖 Early this morning was the first time I showered in maybe four days and that was after my wife got on my butt about it purely out of concern. 😟 But I was even too tired to really try, I still scrubbed myself and washed my hair twice, but not as much effort as I would normally put in, and that breaks my heart. 💔
I try to regain my social battery and rest but it's hard when there are many projects to do. I thought about a constructive plan; have a schedule made, on certain days there are different household activities for the ones who can help. The issue with this idea is it's nothing but pure chaos and some people straight up refuse to help me, and that's not including my loving beautiful wife, because of her MS and even when she isn't doing well she still trys to help if that says something! If I could just get more help maybe I'd have more energy 😴
At least I'm trying my best to show up for myself, and take care of my in general well-being and that's what matters.💖💖💖 I'm trying like he** to stay positive, up beat, happy, but there is that thing of toxic positivity and I don't really want to go down that dark road either. I know there is a balance but it's so easy to just only focus on the positivity and nothing more, especially when things get so damn heavy. I just really have to stay out of my head, and I really want some peace of mind in this house.😞
I love you all and I hope your having a wonderful day/night 💖💖💖
@crimsonRaspberries1486
Yay, you don't have to leave us 💜💕
Thankfully, 😁
I wasn't sure because I have never had a android before😂
How are you!! 💓
@crimsonRaspberries1486
I'm good, please don't turn into a penguin 😂
😂😂 someone in this house is finicky about the heat, so I minus well identify as a penguin 😄
Or maybe a bear... They like to hibernate when it gets cold 🧸
I'm so glad your doing good, did you have a good day?
@crimsonRaspberries1486
I did have a good day. Went for lunch with my two sisters, who I hadn't seen in a while, both were in hospital, one got bit by a dog, and one has a clot on the spleen.
I'm so happy for you, and the fact that you got to bond with your sisters 💖💖
What did you guys have?
@crimsonRaspberries1486
We had chicken salads on bagels with tea 💜💕
That sounds pretty damn good!! Hopefully the weather was decent 😃
I see you trying. Your vulnerability. Expressing your truths. I can relate to things you have spoken about. I know you want better, you wouldn’t be here or outing yourself if you didn’t. I’m glad you were able to make things work to stay in this site because I would’ve missed you. It’s hard for some reason for us to show up for ourselves at times. Maybe because we don’t always show ourselves the appreciation and over look it. Not everyday is going to be rainbows and unicorns. As much as we just want that after everything life has handed us. Love ya. Keep your chin up. I hope you felt better after your shower 💖💖
Hello Princess Peach 🍑 💗 🍑 💗 🍑 💗 🍑 💗 🍑 💗 I'm so delighted to hear from you, it was maybe around 7:30am when I showered I felt better after not showering for four days I'll admit that!
I'm so happy that I can be so raw, emotional, vulnerable, and just myself here and still receive so much love in many ways, it shocks me everyday. 💞 I'm so sorry that you can relate to me Princess Peach, 💖😰 I don't wish that on anyone at all..
I also think you are very much right about showing up for ourselves, or we work and work and work till we don't have the energy to even show up and that I think has been part of my case..
Thank you for your sweet loving message Princess Peach I love you too and I hope you are keeping your chin up too! How are you doing?? Did you have a great day?😄