sometimes i wonder

i sometimes think about why i did not just give up but thats when i remember who i am i am someone who wants to have a life .something to be proud of i said to myself i already got this far why stop now and ,, make it count ,, but i never really used that to the full i am not exactly doing everything to have a good life and all that but its not horrible . its okay i just take it slowly since when the last time i rushed it i got a burnout and it was like adrenaline you do everything but then you are tired and can do nothing but if i just take it slowly i can test how things have a impact on my life how i feel and more . before i thought setling down was weak but turn out my opinion was weak because i did not think it trought but i learned so at least thats good and taking it slowly does not make me weak like i thought before, it makes me smarter since i expirinced it i learned it and now i can try to see how it can be just like many other things in life [ and i had to roast myself because its funny to me at least to me i just like to roast myself for my mistakes so at least its funny ,not something i think of later and cant get out of my head , its a nice way of telling my brain nothing to see here just some memories you dont need to remember ]