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Hi i first self harmed was 9 years ago i just wanted to feel something at that time and self harm was kinda soothing for me so whenever i got overwhelmed i used to sh and it would put my mind to an ease. but i dont feel like that anymore sh hasnt been the same, it doesnt help me feel any better now. im not easily triggered and sh hasnt been my answer to anything now, but there are some days when my brain goes all intrusive on me and all i can think of is sh, i wanna do things like smash my hand against a window, break glass, st@b mys3lf, or just the usual like cutt!ng mys3lf, and it's so strong that the only think stopping me from doing it is the people around me, and im a big what-will-people-think-about-me person and i live with my family so i dont act on my intrusive thoughts but i dont like ignoring them either i mean i wanna try that *** it looks so promising the blood, the shattered glass, the pain i dont know why i feel this way , the obsession with this is crazy. i dont sh anymore, im 2 months clean, i know thats not much but i havent harmed myself the same like i used to so it all just feel like an act to me now so idk (im not in crises for gods sake)
@idkkkkkk69
sorry to hear about that, recovery is a slow and steady process 🥲
i remember doing sh when i was younger cuz i thought it would make me feel better. but as i got older i had the same realization as u; sh is not the answer
i'm so proud of u for being 2 months clean, even if it doesn't sound like much. the fact that u still have intrusive thoughts but still choose to not act on it really shows how strong of a person u are so keep it up! :)
what matters is u doing ur best even when times are tough. so be kind to yourself and know tht u are not alone ♥️