Asexual i think?
I am so very confused and only wish to find answers. I have never felt sexual attraction to someone in person before so i want to say i am under the asexual umbrella however, i have extremely strong feelings for certain tv characters. I dream of spending time with them, romantic dates, and even fantasies with them. Want it so badly it hurts sometimes.
Having said that, i don't know that i would call my fantasies sexual. They always stop before actual sex can happen and morph into cuddle sessions or make out sessions, but I've never fantasized about having sex myself, my fantasies never include myself when they are sexual in nature. If i try to think about actually having sex i usually get super uncomfortable.
want to experience that passion that i feel in my fantasies in real life with someone, but I've never felt that way about a real person the way i do about a non-existent fictional character. I feel broken or damaged somehow, i feel like I'm just trying too hard or maybe not trying enough or overthinking my whole life.
@Whitesunflower
Hi friend 💜 Thanks for sharing this! Firstly, I want to validate your confusion as sexuality is a reallt difficult thong to grapple with, and by reaching out it shows a lot of maturity and strength.
What you've described does indeed sound like something under the asexual umbrella- welcome! You're not broken, you're not weird, you are whole and beautiful and figuring things out. And that's okay. We're all here to support you 💜
Take as much time and googling as you need, and remember, it's fluid, so whatever word(s) feels good now doesn't have to be for forever. It's about what makes you comfortable right now, and if that changes tomorrow, that's okay too 😊
Sending warmth 💜🌿
@Whitesunflower hi there! i moved your thread to the 'asexual umbrella support' subforum since it was in the incorrect one! please take a look at this thread to be able to navigate the subcommunity a bit more :)