i like being aroace but…

this is like a vent ***

i accept myself for being aroace. realizing i am has made me feel more like myself. but the thing is i still wanna get in a qpr. i still dont rlly experience the two typical forms of attraction, but i dont wanna be alone. 

im genuinely scared ill never find someone cuz its hard to find ace ppl. and being ace is a spectrum. so even if i find someone who is ace maybe theyd be somewhere else on the spectrum, and it wouldnt work out. and just cuz they r ace doesnt mean ill like them like that. it just feels like my options r so narrow and its totally likely i wont get married. 

just makes me anxious n not excited for the future, and its the only thing keeping me from totally accepting myself.